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i hate the way my moms been acting the past couple of months. im sick of getting hit with a bunch of questions the minute i walk in the door. im sick of my mom trying to be friends with me. she needs to leave me alone. i need to get out of this house.
i feel so miserable right now. i cant be home and i hate the fact that im not allowed out on school nights anymore. seriously its no the fact that i want to go out and socialize i just hate being home. sitting home leads to me thinking and just makes me upset and depressed.
i've also come to the conclusion that i hate fontbonne. i hate the atmosphere, i hate the academics and i hate a majority of the people. its not that i dont get along with alot of people because im pretty much cool with everyone, im just sick of the bull shit girly shit talking stuff. it gets old.
except for maybe 3 or 4 people i dont trust anyone. seriously. ive always had major trust issues with people but now its even worse. i hate people. people will screw you over. people lie. everything is just a lie.
for the first time last week i was actually happy and having fun. i was feeling myself. i was feeling alive. i want that feeling back. i hate what im thinking/feeling right now.
you will get fucked over.everyone will eventually fuck you over. everyone lies.
i need a job im going crazy not having one i feel like a 2 year old who has to be occupied every second of the day. i need money. i want to go to college i just want to get away
finding out one of your good friends might be moving to texas next month is ill.
i know this is wicked bitchy. i really have been alot of fun latley and enjoying life. ive just been thinking to much..
lets go back to the beginning. lets start over.
i feel so miserable right now. i cant be home and i hate the fact that im not allowed out on school nights anymore. seriously its no the fact that i want to go out and socialize i just hate being home. sitting home leads to me thinking and just makes me upset and depressed.
i've also come to the conclusion that i hate fontbonne. i hate the atmosphere, i hate the academics and i hate a majority of the people. its not that i dont get along with alot of people because im pretty much cool with everyone, im just sick of the bull shit girly shit talking stuff. it gets old.
except for maybe 3 or 4 people i dont trust anyone. seriously. ive always had major trust issues with people but now its even worse. i hate people. people will screw you over. people lie. everything is just a lie.
for the first time last week i was actually happy and having fun. i was feeling myself. i was feeling alive. i want that feeling back. i hate what im thinking/feeling right now.
you will get fucked over.everyone will eventually fuck you over. everyone lies.
i need a job im going crazy not having one i feel like a 2 year old who has to be occupied every second of the day. i need money. i want to go to college i just want to get away
finding out one of your good friends might be moving to texas next month is ill.
i know this is wicked bitchy. i really have been alot of fun latley and enjoying life. ive just been thinking to much..
lets go back to the beginning. lets start over.