A dream is a wish.......
So Grammy doesn't have Breast Cancer!! That's a HUGE lift off of my back! I'm really excited.
Christmas was pretty good, i got a DIGITAL CAMERA!!! I'm sure you'll be seeing some new pics on my site realll soon!!
Things are beginning to get good again with my favorite! We're actually talking again, which is a plus becuase we haven't talked too much lately and it killed me!!
Another thing that kills me is what my grandpa is going through. It's killing me to think that i MAY Have just spent the last Christmas with him that can happen. Okay I know i've got to stay opptimistic and possitive about it but its just extremely hard.
Okay, so this is the deal with him..... all his veins and arteries in his legs are clogged, in both legs. And he found out that he needs to have a reall risky surgery in order to maybe fix it. But, he also just found out that he can't have that surgery yet. The major artery in the right side of his neck is 80% clogged. They need to do a surgery in order to bypass that artery and help him. BUT they don't know if his heart is healthy enough to go through the surgery. So, they need to put him through a stress test, running on a treadmill while being cabled up to all kinds of machines. BUT, he can't do that because of his legs, and they cause him soo much pain just standing on them for a few minutes. So they are going to be giving him this shot of stuff that makes his heart race just like a stress test on the treadmill. If that says that his heart is healthy enough, then they will put him into bypass surgery.But, there's a MAJOR chance that he has will have a Major Heart Attack! And they can't do the surgery on his legs until they do the surgery on his neck first. So if he can't have the bypass on his neck, i'm not too sure what will happen, i'm trying to stay positive, but it's honestly soo scary.
Doctors say this whole thing is caused by him smoking MANY MANY MANY Years ago, from drinking (which he did in the navy) and from Cholesterol. And they say its genetic. My mom is going through this whole diet thing with my family. She feels that me and my sister are going to be going through this whole thing next. I dont think that will happen, honestly I am 18 and Maegen is 15 almost 16, we may eat out a lot and not eat as healthy as we should be, but all of our arteries aren't going to be clogged because we exercise a lot and play sports and what not.
All in all i'm extremely scared and i'm not sure what to do, and it would be fine, if that was the only thing on my mind right now. But there's soo much more, and I don't really feel like going into depth about it now, but i'm pretty sure the stress is coming back......
I'm probably going to go to bed now if i can stop crying......great, this is just fun!! I guess i can happy that Grammy doesn't have Breast Cancer, at least its only one grandparent now instead of two.....i guess that's the positive side, if there really is one.
Papa: I'm praying for you.......hopefully everything works out for the best!! You've been there for me through everything! I don't know what i'd do if something bad happened!! Love you to pieces and can't wait for everything to work out!! You've got some young grandchildren to spend time with and see grow up!! Keep praying for yourself and keep doing exactly what the doctors say to do!! You're in all of our hearts and i'm always thinking of your recovery!!! *muah*
Christmas was pretty good, i got a DIGITAL CAMERA!!! I'm sure you'll be seeing some new pics on my site realll soon!!
Things are beginning to get good again with my favorite! We're actually talking again, which is a plus becuase we haven't talked too much lately and it killed me!!
Another thing that kills me is what my grandpa is going through. It's killing me to think that i MAY Have just spent the last Christmas with him that can happen. Okay I know i've got to stay opptimistic and possitive about it but its just extremely hard.
Okay, so this is the deal with him..... all his veins and arteries in his legs are clogged, in both legs. And he found out that he needs to have a reall risky surgery in order to maybe fix it. But, he also just found out that he can't have that surgery yet. The major artery in the right side of his neck is 80% clogged. They need to do a surgery in order to bypass that artery and help him. BUT they don't know if his heart is healthy enough to go through the surgery. So, they need to put him through a stress test, running on a treadmill while being cabled up to all kinds of machines. BUT, he can't do that because of his legs, and they cause him soo much pain just standing on them for a few minutes. So they are going to be giving him this shot of stuff that makes his heart race just like a stress test on the treadmill. If that says that his heart is healthy enough, then they will put him into bypass surgery.But, there's a MAJOR chance that he has will have a Major Heart Attack! And they can't do the surgery on his legs until they do the surgery on his neck first. So if he can't have the bypass on his neck, i'm not too sure what will happen, i'm trying to stay positive, but it's honestly soo scary.
Doctors say this whole thing is caused by him smoking MANY MANY MANY Years ago, from drinking (which he did in the navy) and from Cholesterol. And they say its genetic. My mom is going through this whole diet thing with my family. She feels that me and my sister are going to be going through this whole thing next. I dont think that will happen, honestly I am 18 and Maegen is 15 almost 16, we may eat out a lot and not eat as healthy as we should be, but all of our arteries aren't going to be clogged because we exercise a lot and play sports and what not.
All in all i'm extremely scared and i'm not sure what to do, and it would be fine, if that was the only thing on my mind right now. But there's soo much more, and I don't really feel like going into depth about it now, but i'm pretty sure the stress is coming back......
I'm probably going to go to bed now if i can stop crying......great, this is just fun!! I guess i can happy that Grammy doesn't have Breast Cancer, at least its only one grandparent now instead of two.....i guess that's the positive side, if there really is one.
Papa: I'm praying for you.......hopefully everything works out for the best!! You've been there for me through everything! I don't know what i'd do if something bad happened!! Love you to pieces and can't wait for everything to work out!! You've got some young grandchildren to spend time with and see grow up!! Keep praying for yourself and keep doing exactly what the doctors say to do!! You're in all of our hearts and i'm always thinking of your recovery!!! *muah*