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Today might've been the worst school day I've had all semester. Slept in and missed a class I always miss, but a thesis paper was due and I didn't finish it but sent it in anyway, fucked up my magazine project right before it was due, got a parking ticket, still short on interviews for my next video, ran out of cigarettes, ran out of drugs, and didn't get anything done all night because i ended up on the phone with my mom for like three hours. We had a really good conversation that did help my perspective on things, though. But now I'm all pissed off again, because I realized I didn't get anything done.
I would love if I didn't lose things so often. Currently missing my iPod charger--sooooo now I have no cigarettes, no iPod, no money, BARELY enough gas to get me home, no groceries except for egg noodles and Total, and nothing to worry about/work on except school projects. Charming. I hate
....HATE, the "college lifestyle." i HATE being a full time student.
"Come on, you just have one more year," my mom says. God help me if I can even convince myself to return. I hate the people here, I hate how people view me here, I hate the mistakes I make under the constraints of being in school.....grrr.
Also, an I go at least one day without committing a major social faux pas? Please? There's really been way too many lately.
I kind of wish I had gotten a job this semester. Would've had to stay in Syracuse more, but maybe then my grades wouldn't suck and I'd have money for groceries, and could fucking go buy a pack of cigarettes.
Sigh. It's only college. And I won't have to worry about it again till August '09. Awesome. Who knows, maybe I can convince my mom to let me transfer....but then it'll take so many more years to finish my fucking undergrad. Oh well, at least I'll be 21 by next year, so I can just go to Chuck's every night. Who knows, if I'm really lucky I can drop out with one semester left like my father did--that can work out, right?
I would love if I didn't lose things so often. Currently missing my iPod charger--sooooo now I have no cigarettes, no iPod, no money, BARELY enough gas to get me home, no groceries except for egg noodles and Total, and nothing to worry about/work on except school projects. Charming. I hate
....HATE, the "college lifestyle." i HATE being a full time student.
"Come on, you just have one more year," my mom says. God help me if I can even convince myself to return. I hate the people here, I hate how people view me here, I hate the mistakes I make under the constraints of being in school.....grrr.
Also, an I go at least one day without committing a major social faux pas? Please? There's really been way too many lately.
I kind of wish I had gotten a job this semester. Would've had to stay in Syracuse more, but maybe then my grades wouldn't suck and I'd have money for groceries, and could fucking go buy a pack of cigarettes.
Sigh. It's only college. And I won't have to worry about it again till August '09. Awesome. Who knows, maybe I can convince my mom to let me transfer....but then it'll take so many more years to finish my fucking undergrad. Oh well, at least I'll be 21 by next year, so I can just go to Chuck's every night. Who knows, if I'm really lucky I can drop out with one semester left like my father did--that can work out, right?