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my cats sitting on my computer table staring at me. hes so weird. lol ahh i just realized i cant take him to school with me next year :( im gonna die without my kitty!! and my family hates him so they wont take care of him!! oh my gosh he needs to come with me. lol
leaving for school in 6 months and one week. thats 187 days!! oh my fucking god. the offical moving in day is august 27th. thats insane. i have 187 days to live my life to the fullest with these people that i may never see again. it sucks because we all know everything the life we know is coming to an end. for instance, with alex.. im trying everything in my power to not get too attached to him because i know that in less than a half a year hes leaving for school too. neither of us are planning on stopping our lives for eachother so then thats it. for all of my friends planning to go to different schools.. never gonna see them. the people i spent the last 4 years of my life with are all splitting up. it fucking sucks. im finally realizing that this really is *it*. i remember being in 8th grade and looking at the highschool kids and thinking i still had forever before i had to leave and actually start real life. here i am more than half way done with my senior year. i really thought highschool would last forever. i truly in my mind believed that. i have to say that ive had the ultimate high school experience. i really feel bad for people who say that they hated it. i dont think i could have loved it ne more. i was the cheerleader. i had boyfriends. i went to partys. i did well in school, got awards and made my parents happy. most importantly, i made a group of the best friends anyone could ask for. what more could you ask for from a highschool experience? nothing. here i was a 'big fish in a small pond'. most people know who i am. next year im starting over, just like i did 4 years ago, except this is the *big time*.. god. im so scared lol im just glad ive got my best friends to do it with me. as much as i wish i could stay in highschool forever, i think im ready. :) UALBANY here i comeee :)
anyway, on a less deep note..
yesterday spend the day out with Ashley and Luis. we went down to the JV mall and ::gasp:: DIDNT GET LOST!! surprising isnt it?! haha. shopped for a little.. didnt buy ne thing :( lol went to applebees for dinner and then went back up to meet the bellas at sky high billiards to play pool. def. a cool place lol thats sooo our new place to play!! haha yeahh we kicked ass too <3
so today the snow prohibits me from going ne where :( i hate it sometimesss blahh
yet, i have the entire house to myself so im not completely upset :)
im out, leave some loversss
x0x
leaving for school in 6 months and one week. thats 187 days!! oh my fucking god. the offical moving in day is august 27th. thats insane. i have 187 days to live my life to the fullest with these people that i may never see again. it sucks because we all know everything the life we know is coming to an end. for instance, with alex.. im trying everything in my power to not get too attached to him because i know that in less than a half a year hes leaving for school too. neither of us are planning on stopping our lives for eachother so then thats it. for all of my friends planning to go to different schools.. never gonna see them. the people i spent the last 4 years of my life with are all splitting up. it fucking sucks. im finally realizing that this really is *it*. i remember being in 8th grade and looking at the highschool kids and thinking i still had forever before i had to leave and actually start real life. here i am more than half way done with my senior year. i really thought highschool would last forever. i truly in my mind believed that. i have to say that ive had the ultimate high school experience. i really feel bad for people who say that they hated it. i dont think i could have loved it ne more. i was the cheerleader. i had boyfriends. i went to partys. i did well in school, got awards and made my parents happy. most importantly, i made a group of the best friends anyone could ask for. what more could you ask for from a highschool experience? nothing. here i was a 'big fish in a small pond'. most people know who i am. next year im starting over, just like i did 4 years ago, except this is the *big time*.. god. im so scared lol im just glad ive got my best friends to do it with me. as much as i wish i could stay in highschool forever, i think im ready. :) UALBANY here i comeee :)
anyway, on a less deep note..
yesterday spend the day out with Ashley and Luis. we went down to the JV mall and ::gasp:: DIDNT GET LOST!! surprising isnt it?! haha. shopped for a little.. didnt buy ne thing :( lol went to applebees for dinner and then went back up to meet the bellas at sky high billiards to play pool. def. a cool place lol thats sooo our new place to play!! haha yeahh we kicked ass too <3
so today the snow prohibits me from going ne where :( i hate it sometimesss blahh
yet, i have the entire house to myself so im not completely upset :)
im out, leave some loversss
x0x