Ohh goshh
Would I say we have a history? No; that implies that there was something worth remembering. See, all it was, was a delusional girl, & a boy who couldn't bring himself to give a damn.
can't resist talking to you anymore.
i've tried, and i've tried.
but it just makes me want you more.
every single person has at least one secret
that would break your heart. if we could just
remember this, I think there would be a lot
more compassion and tolerance in the world.
whenever I'm walking down the hallway at school
and I see you coming my way, I determinedly avoid
looking at you. out of the corner of my eye, I can see
that you're not looking at me. but it makes me wonder
whether you're doing the same thing.
because I can't stop thinking about you.
I can't get you out of my head...
from under my skin. because everytime I see you,
my heart kicks in my chest.
"I wish there was a way when you don’t ever want to think about somebody ever again, that you could erase their existence from other people’s minds. Because as long as they’re in someone’s head they exist. Which means you end up talking about them." -Head games by: Mariah Fredrick
Don't underestimate me. If I wanted it, I'd have it.
For the first time in my life I know the true meaning of "break down." You always hear people say, "Oh, I`m having a break down today!" But it`s different than that. It`s when something so small, so ridiculously unimportant sets you off & you snap. You feel it inside of you & you try to hold it back. You don`t need people asking questions but someone will make a joke at your expense, or playfully slap your shoulder & you lose it. You almost hate them for what they`ve said or done. But maybe that`s not why..maybe you hate them simply cause they`re happy.
The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not.
I think I wanted something between us cause I thought that maybe you could be the one person who could fill my need to feel loved, cared for, & wanted. Stupid of me to have been so blind, cause you see, you only broke my heart.
and once you lose yourself,
you have two choices: find the person you used to be..
or lose that person completely.