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ive thought alot today- dunno how this is gonna come out?
but u dont have to read it if u dont wanna...i just needa get it out.
okay so, for the past like month alot of stuff has happened.
like i never even pictured ne of it to happen, but it has n well ive never had to deal w. so much at once n i think today everything just like...hit me.
for sum reason on the way home from eatin i just got upset.
idk why?
so i dropped jon off n just came home so i cud think about everything..
n well i started crying? i never just cry outta no where..n well i really dont know why i cried? its weird.
i mean im happy, like ive had alot of fun latly n stuff but for sum reason everything hit me today- boyfriend, friends, school, parents, family, gettin a job, car, everything..every lil thing. n well i have no idea why?
maybe sumthing happened n i just didnt relize it?
or maybe God is tryin to show me sumthing..idk?
but i feel like my life is just crammed with stuff, its like i get stressed over every lil thing. n normally i dont get stressed usually ill blow it off but its the total oppisite rite now.. its like i get stressed n it doesnt go away for a while kinda thing?
i keep feeling lower n lower whenever nething happens
i guess alot is goin on? not only w. me but with my friends n family.
i know i dont have life as hard as others, but i guess its tuff for the 1st time im actually having to deal w. sumthing really important. n sumthing that cud change my life, n i mean it has affected it...
its not just ONE thing its like a bunch of things put together u know?
i wish i cud explain it better, but its hard.
im just sayin w/e comes to my head.
but ugh =/ i guess im just askin for too much.
i just want every1 happy for just one day.. i know its not possible but ugh it wud be wunderful is it was! n i wish people liked others, i wish we were all just friends. im the kinda person who will be friends w. ne1.. theres alot of people like that but sum people are focused on a certin type of friend n well idk i guess i just wish we were all hapyp w. each other. but i know that isnt possible either..
i wish things with me n jon were back to normal n we just had a normal relationsip, i know every relationship has its ups n downs but wow its all happening at once. but i am glad were still together n gettin thru it together.
i wish life was like it was like 5 months ago, but with yall in it
i wish i knew what God wants of me, i just hope im not lettin him down.
i wish i knew why all this is happening- everything happens for a reason, but wats the reason?
ahh i dunno.
i mean i know my life isnt horrible, n i know other people have a tuffer life n well im not doin this for sympathy or for it to come out as i have the worse life bc i know i dont. i guess im just...confused with things?
i dunno. just alot goin on.
but im gonna go..
sry if this was confusin n sry if it was long..if u read it. thank you<3 ur wunderfuL!
i love u all<3
xOx-
<3 kc michelle
but u dont have to read it if u dont wanna...i just needa get it out.
okay so, for the past like month alot of stuff has happened.
like i never even pictured ne of it to happen, but it has n well ive never had to deal w. so much at once n i think today everything just like...hit me.
for sum reason on the way home from eatin i just got upset.
idk why?
so i dropped jon off n just came home so i cud think about everything..
n well i started crying? i never just cry outta no where..n well i really dont know why i cried? its weird.
i mean im happy, like ive had alot of fun latly n stuff but for sum reason everything hit me today- boyfriend, friends, school, parents, family, gettin a job, car, everything..every lil thing. n well i have no idea why?
maybe sumthing happened n i just didnt relize it?
or maybe God is tryin to show me sumthing..idk?
but i feel like my life is just crammed with stuff, its like i get stressed over every lil thing. n normally i dont get stressed usually ill blow it off but its the total oppisite rite now.. its like i get stressed n it doesnt go away for a while kinda thing?
i keep feeling lower n lower whenever nething happens
i guess alot is goin on? not only w. me but with my friends n family.
i know i dont have life as hard as others, but i guess its tuff for the 1st time im actually having to deal w. sumthing really important. n sumthing that cud change my life, n i mean it has affected it...
its not just ONE thing its like a bunch of things put together u know?
i wish i cud explain it better, but its hard.
im just sayin w/e comes to my head.
but ugh =/ i guess im just askin for too much.
i just want every1 happy for just one day.. i know its not possible but ugh it wud be wunderful is it was! n i wish people liked others, i wish we were all just friends. im the kinda person who will be friends w. ne1.. theres alot of people like that but sum people are focused on a certin type of friend n well idk i guess i just wish we were all hapyp w. each other. but i know that isnt possible either..
i wish things with me n jon were back to normal n we just had a normal relationsip, i know every relationship has its ups n downs but wow its all happening at once. but i am glad were still together n gettin thru it together.
i wish life was like it was like 5 months ago, but with yall in it
i wish i knew what God wants of me, i just hope im not lettin him down.
i wish i knew why all this is happening- everything happens for a reason, but wats the reason?
ahh i dunno.
i mean i know my life isnt horrible, n i know other people have a tuffer life n well im not doin this for sympathy or for it to come out as i have the worse life bc i know i dont. i guess im just...confused with things?
i dunno. just alot goin on.
but im gonna go..
sry if this was confusin n sry if it was long..if u read it. thank you<3 ur wunderfuL!
i love u all<3
xOx-
<3 kc michelle