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yes its been like 200000 years since ive written in here and its almost midnight and im exhausted so this will be short. yeah i just got in from work. and i talked to sarah<3 when i got out n it helped me a lot. and im talking to matt right now whos a good kid :-). but yes i dont think i could really talk about my problems that are buggin me beyond BELIEF.. bc ppl love to judge and no matter what i say ill always offend sumone. so im best to keep my fat fucking mouth shut so no one complains or hates me anymore than they already do. even though im basically contradicting myself, here i go...
yeah im getting shit from a lot of ppl i thought were my friends but they all decided to be sucky when i need then the most. im going thru hell and no one knows cept for kristine whats really goin on.. but ppl still decided to give me shit today. yeah... my advice. dont ever fucking trust ur friends.. even if uve been to hell and back with them u think u got a real bond. ppl are naturally selfish n dont except them to show u the same respect that uve shown them. so yeah. i work now. papa ginos in burlington. interesting place.. but i best not say anything else of course bc i "fucking hate everyone" and everyones just a bunch of judgemental bitches...
yeah when i state"everyone" im not really meaning everyone.. just really 90% of my friends.yea friends. they all suckkk. dont get me wrong i do love sum of them to death.. like kristine. shes my fucking other half and i dont think id survive if it wasnt for her. no matter what happens she will except me for me. n if me n her have a problem, we wont act 12 n play games, we'll deal with it bc NOTHING is worth throwing away a close friendship. id also liek to state, that my friends who always say "jackie i love you!" all the time and are bullshitting me. please fucking stop ur just wasting ur time bc you and i both know ur FAKE. n this isnt for an individual.. its for a few people. im not even in a bad mood right now. im just sick of stupid people and im sick of always feeling bad for people trying to blame me for their problems. i have this one friend... who i love more than anything and she claims shed do anything for me.. but yet shed screw me over in a heartbeat.. and its really getting to me now. ive neevr really cared.. possibly bc ive always been to fukked up to notice? i dk.. it just kinda hurts knowing that i do so much for her but shes trying to ruin my life pruposely just so she can look better. its like PLEASE leave me outa ur bullshit. i could resort to kciking her ass. or i could ruin her life but i know how bad it feels to get that to happen to u. i kno shed fuck me over.. no doubt about it.ive gotten tons of proof she already has. i guess i got a conscience i dk...
so yes family situation.. wicked gay. but hey, it dont bother me bc i dont think about it? if i dont think about it then its really not there then right?
i dk, a quite of few people have basically disowned me bc they think ima bad kid... but seriously everyone can go fuck themselves.yeah i do drugs.. go fuck urself.. im not bothering anyone else but myself. i could be like everyone else and gossip all day n do anything possible to fuck my friends over so id look better? no thanks im not wasting the effort. ill stick with the drugs. mentally, its safer.
i dk that shit works for me. and if u can be straight all the time and also juggle not being a brainwashed scumbag like 99% of america.. congrats.
yes and id also liek to add that to the people who have a bad day and take it out on everyone else... do everyone a favor n KILL URSELF. EVERYONE has problems. ur not unique so leave ur problems at the door.. and if this "sympathy" shit gets u attention bc u want people to feel bad for and wont consider all the shitty things u do.. fucking awesome.
well i think if i state anymore of my views... ill get shit for it. so, in conclusion, im attempting to make sum ppl aware that im pretty pissed about their shittness and if they further do anything scumbaggish behind my back agen like theyve been doing for years... i dont mind getting rid of them.
yeah im getting shit from a lot of ppl i thought were my friends but they all decided to be sucky when i need then the most. im going thru hell and no one knows cept for kristine whats really goin on.. but ppl still decided to give me shit today. yeah... my advice. dont ever fucking trust ur friends.. even if uve been to hell and back with them u think u got a real bond. ppl are naturally selfish n dont except them to show u the same respect that uve shown them. so yeah. i work now. papa ginos in burlington. interesting place.. but i best not say anything else of course bc i "fucking hate everyone" and everyones just a bunch of judgemental bitches...
yeah when i state"everyone" im not really meaning everyone.. just really 90% of my friends.yea friends. they all suckkk. dont get me wrong i do love sum of them to death.. like kristine. shes my fucking other half and i dont think id survive if it wasnt for her. no matter what happens she will except me for me. n if me n her have a problem, we wont act 12 n play games, we'll deal with it bc NOTHING is worth throwing away a close friendship. id also liek to state, that my friends who always say "jackie i love you!" all the time and are bullshitting me. please fucking stop ur just wasting ur time bc you and i both know ur FAKE. n this isnt for an individual.. its for a few people. im not even in a bad mood right now. im just sick of stupid people and im sick of always feeling bad for people trying to blame me for their problems. i have this one friend... who i love more than anything and she claims shed do anything for me.. but yet shed screw me over in a heartbeat.. and its really getting to me now. ive neevr really cared.. possibly bc ive always been to fukked up to notice? i dk.. it just kinda hurts knowing that i do so much for her but shes trying to ruin my life pruposely just so she can look better. its like PLEASE leave me outa ur bullshit. i could resort to kciking her ass. or i could ruin her life but i know how bad it feels to get that to happen to u. i kno shed fuck me over.. no doubt about it.ive gotten tons of proof she already has. i guess i got a conscience i dk...
so yes family situation.. wicked gay. but hey, it dont bother me bc i dont think about it? if i dont think about it then its really not there then right?
i dk, a quite of few people have basically disowned me bc they think ima bad kid... but seriously everyone can go fuck themselves.yeah i do drugs.. go fuck urself.. im not bothering anyone else but myself. i could be like everyone else and gossip all day n do anything possible to fuck my friends over so id look better? no thanks im not wasting the effort. ill stick with the drugs. mentally, its safer.
i dk that shit works for me. and if u can be straight all the time and also juggle not being a brainwashed scumbag like 99% of america.. congrats.
yes and id also liek to add that to the people who have a bad day and take it out on everyone else... do everyone a favor n KILL URSELF. EVERYONE has problems. ur not unique so leave ur problems at the door.. and if this "sympathy" shit gets u attention bc u want people to feel bad for and wont consider all the shitty things u do.. fucking awesome.
well i think if i state anymore of my views... ill get shit for it. so, in conclusion, im attempting to make sum ppl aware that im pretty pissed about their shittness and if they further do anything scumbaggish behind my back agen like theyve been doing for years... i dont mind getting rid of them.