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its finally friday.. ive never been so happy. im not really in the mood to write in here.. im never really in the mood to write in here. theres no point really bc everything i say gets critisized. yea god hate me.. my cell fone is gone. i remember leaving it at kristines but she searched n couldnt find it. :-( but anyways im leaving for the night and staying until monday.. to my dads house n its gunna suck bc i wont be able to contact anyone bc my fone is gone and my dad doesnt have a house fone or a computer. it sucks. right now i feel so weird im pissed off and sad and i dont know why. prolly because of everything that has been happening lately. like losing my best friend in the world who i felt was such a true friend, and hearing from someone that she doesnt give a shit about me anymore and she could care less about me and is still mad at me for sumthing i didnt do. and then billys gone to fucking dartmouth which sucks bc billy was the only person that could cheer me up no matter what the condition. and yea... i havent talked to pat for a while which sucks. and then the thing with my parents is getting worse. yesterday i had to sit in the car for 3 hours while my parents screamed at eachother outside the car. I used to think i had a great family life and it was sumthing i could rely on.. but its gone. my dad was gunna move back into the house and my mom was gunna move with her boyfriend.. and it would be great bc i could live with my dad and still see my mom anytime i want. But thats no longer happening. sumbody talked to my mom and changed her mind. my fathers rent is up at his place and he cant rent it again bc the land lord wants to move in there for like 6 months so my dad has to rent a new place and he cant buy a place bc we dont kno whats gunna happen with the courts and shit. so now my dad has to move to glouster. the one last person in my life is gunna have to leave and ill just grow apart from him and ill end up living with an irresponsible parent who does nothing but mentally abuse us.. but who fucking cares about my problems bc i dont. ive realized life sucks and theres nothing i can do about it so i should just live it as if its a dream and its not really happening.. therefore i cant get upset about it. but yea im guna end this entry bc i dont feel like thinking no more adios