i dont care anymore if i let you down, i believe that i need to be free..
damn pensive moods! lol i hate them..well anyway..last night we did the usual went to chill at anthonys and drank.. it was fun like always.. sabby and kat passed by for a lil =). but i also got to thinking about a few things and a few people, one of which maybe i shouldnt have been thinking about but w/e. they werent necessarily good thoughts. it just really pisses me off that people dont realize what they have until its gone, and sometime its too late to get it back. i guess we all just take things for granted, but w/e it really isnt my problem anymore. thats not the way that i wanted things to end up though.. so it kinda bothers me but at the same time im happy with my choice. things change..feelings change.. and im over it..finally. took me long enough right? lol
on thursday i hung out with my some of girls and i realized that as much as i didnt wanna accept it, things have changed with them too. we have grown apart alot..and it sucks. i kind of felt out place being with them for some reason. i guess i have changed but so have they. and its not necessarily a bad thing..but it is at the same time b/c its taking us farther from each other. i love you guys alot i really do..and i dont want us to grow apart anymore..but i guess shit happenss.
why do i always find myself going from one group of friends to another? maybe im the one thats causing everything..who knows.. or maybe im just spending way too much time trying to figure everything out and not really getting anywhere. maybe some things are better left alone and maybe i shouldnt try to analyze everything..
does any of this shit im writing even make sense? i dont know lol but w/e im just writing w.e is coming to my head and it seems to make sense up there..
well i guess thats all for now kiddos..muah