in a white room with black curtains
i have to be at the school at 6.45 tomorrow. on a saturday. 6.45. wtf im pissed. anyway afterwards should be fun if we could ever find a ride out of that damn place.
um lets see. today was weird. everyones in a bad mood. to much stress. im gonna see if my mom will let me skip monday just do i can catch up and to regain some of my mental health. you know. so much homeowork. life is gay as hell.
umm du dum dum dum. nothing new really. i went to get my permit today after my last drive, and the computers were down, so i couldnt. and ofcourse my mom was pissed and ofcourse it was my fault somehow. and ofcourse she yelled at me for wuite a long time. then i had to do the dishes, for the thirds time in a row when i finally got home since my sister and i are supposed to switch off days. i get so pissed when this happens.
i havent hung out wiht anyone in so long its ridiculous. absolutely insane. everyday after school ive had dreivers ed, or ive been so tired i walk in the door and fall asleep. i dont understand how i can get way more sleep then some people, yet they can last way longer then i can. i just cant take being this tired all the time anymore. i need a break so bad. memorial break is going to be one big god damn party i swear. we all deserve it. maybe a bonfire at my house, im in the mood for a chick flick night, and idk. well see.
my back hurts.
ha. yeah so everything i own is basically falling apart. actually my whole life sorta is. the kitchen isnt done still, the contractor we hired, whos my moms friend, hasnt called in a week or two and weve left pleanty of messages, so she basically fucked us over. bitch. i always hated her. my mom stopped being pissed for like a week, but its starting back up again. i just cant last like this much longer. things have just been so fucked up i swear
umm guys are all gay. i mena just stupid. today i swear to god i had to really restrain myself from just ripping off every guy in my spanish class a new one. i swear to god they took themselves to a whole new level that day. i mean just so fucking stupid. i seriously hate them all so much now. it was just ridiculous how they were acting. you really had to be there. i was just so mad like intensly pissed. i dont want to see another male today. i just dont. good thing my dad wont be home until like 12 as he stumbles in.
god i miss you so much. today i was in the mood just to sit and chill and just talk, but i had to tape off the kitchen so we could paint again tomorrow. and now i just feel like shit. christ im ranting again. o well. deal.
umm so we im out. maybe ill update tomorrow.
You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always
I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real,
Well I don't want to know
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me
I can see us dying ... are we?
love always
robs
um lets see. today was weird. everyones in a bad mood. to much stress. im gonna see if my mom will let me skip monday just do i can catch up and to regain some of my mental health. you know. so much homeowork. life is gay as hell.
umm du dum dum dum. nothing new really. i went to get my permit today after my last drive, and the computers were down, so i couldnt. and ofcourse my mom was pissed and ofcourse it was my fault somehow. and ofcourse she yelled at me for wuite a long time. then i had to do the dishes, for the thirds time in a row when i finally got home since my sister and i are supposed to switch off days. i get so pissed when this happens.
i havent hung out wiht anyone in so long its ridiculous. absolutely insane. everyday after school ive had dreivers ed, or ive been so tired i walk in the door and fall asleep. i dont understand how i can get way more sleep then some people, yet they can last way longer then i can. i just cant take being this tired all the time anymore. i need a break so bad. memorial break is going to be one big god damn party i swear. we all deserve it. maybe a bonfire at my house, im in the mood for a chick flick night, and idk. well see.
my back hurts.
ha. yeah so everything i own is basically falling apart. actually my whole life sorta is. the kitchen isnt done still, the contractor we hired, whos my moms friend, hasnt called in a week or two and weve left pleanty of messages, so she basically fucked us over. bitch. i always hated her. my mom stopped being pissed for like a week, but its starting back up again. i just cant last like this much longer. things have just been so fucked up i swear
umm guys are all gay. i mena just stupid. today i swear to god i had to really restrain myself from just ripping off every guy in my spanish class a new one. i swear to god they took themselves to a whole new level that day. i mean just so fucking stupid. i seriously hate them all so much now. it was just ridiculous how they were acting. you really had to be there. i was just so mad like intensly pissed. i dont want to see another male today. i just dont. good thing my dad wont be home until like 12 as he stumbles in.
god i miss you so much. today i was in the mood just to sit and chill and just talk, but i had to tape off the kitchen so we could paint again tomorrow. and now i just feel like shit. christ im ranting again. o well. deal.
umm so we im out. maybe ill update tomorrow.
You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always
I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real,
Well I don't want to know
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me
I can see us dying ... are we?
love always
robs