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[xo_mixtape]

i dont know why i am being like this.
maybe its because im on my period.
or maybe its because i feel like he can leave at any moment,
and i'm freaking out.
im afraid to loose again.
im not good at loosing.
and i hate being wrong.
and i have been saying that we will work it out.
that we're supposed to be together.
i know that i want to marry him,
and everything tells me that i will.
and i pray to God that I am not wrong.
i can't stand being wrong, especially about this.
because that would be me loosing, too.
and i cant stand to loose.
a year and a half later, and i keep falling in love with him.
even when i thought i couldnt fall anymore.
everyday. i fall a little harder.
love hurts, but if you love for long enough there is no hurt, and there is just love.
hopefully i will get to that point soon, because i cant stand hurting over stupid things, like i am

i dont know why i am so upset right now.
maybe i need to take some antidepresants.
who knows.

i know that i am lucky to have him.
in fact, i am the luckiest girl in the world.
so why i am letting this get to me?