to stef & hayley..

[xo_misunderstod]

today suxed but still happy. well i feel sort of inferior & like a crimanal lmao. im not going to pour my heart out on the freaking livejournal. but if stefanie and hayley read this, i must say that nomatter what happens you guys are like my sisters i love you and everyone gets in fights, and stuff but i know this will pass over later on... but right now i am like viciously mad, just as well as you guys, and i feel like i dont understand y. yesterday when you said you felt like the 3rd wheel, thats exactly how i feel right now, i feel when ever i try to join in your "deep" convoes during gym , you guys block me out, like i dont exist and then i have to go with other people, then wen were at lunch i try to laugh & talk to you guys but you guys block me out, with this smile. i feel hurt but i still love you guys. & things are pretty hard right now, i just feel also that you guys try to force me to not like some people, & im just friends with everyone and i dont want to be mad at anyone. & wen you guys talk about me that hurts alot too. i mean theres a lot of things running through my mind but im not going to even name them because i know that you have a lot of shit to tell me too. w/e maybe this will all go away but we really need to talk. & im just upset because - this is to stef - we've always been liek a battery pack and we've had soo many fun times together and eveything. - to : hayley- we've had a lot of fun times at your house with the crew and all these things. i just dont want to throw that all away. and yesterday hurt the most of them all lol. becuase you guys were acting liek i didn't even know you, liek i never tried to do that to any of you. things changed so much from the begginning of the year, but still u guys mean a lot to me and i dont want to give that up. im really upset and mad, but i'll get over myself. call me on my cell & we'll talk about it.

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- sara [ dedicated to : stef & hayley___ ]