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You know what, all of this sucks. yesterday, we were best friends. today, i was practically attacked. every 5 minutes i had someone different telling me something mean you two have said about me. were all supposedly "best friends". i dont know what you guys think best friends are but heres what i think. Best friends are people that are there for each other, they support each other yet let each other know when there is a problem. best friends laugh together, cry together, and have some of the best moments together, just because they are so close and love each other so dearly. i dont know how you guys feel about me, but i definatly felt that way about you guys. you guys are practically my life and i dont want it all just to fall apart because there is a problem. if one of you has a problem with me, which obviously yall do considering you had to tell one of my other good friends what to say to me, say it to me. not infront of everyone but call me and tell me or say it on the computer. theres a good chance ill probably get offended but ill get over it. and another thing, do you guys actually want to be friends with me because by the way your acting, it totally doesnt seem like it. like maybe this morning when one of you screamed and cussed in my face because i told you something the other one said. or maybe you, who told hannah everything i do wrong because you cant tell me. you guys may think im a bitch or whatever, but thats only because im defending myself. lately ive been feeling left out, like im the third wheel. ive been good friends with you guys for a long time, weve all been off and on with our relationships because of other friends or boys or whatever. but this summer, all three of us came together as friends. we spent each day with each other and have so many funny memories. it seems as if when school started again it brought back our differences. i never see one of you because we only have lunch together. and i never see the other because your totally fake and act like such a bitch to me infront fo your other friends. everytime one of you call me to do plans it seems like the other one is already invited and yall only invite me so i wont get mad. i hate it i hate all this, im telling this to you here because i cant tlak to you two, ive cried enough today and im so upset by all of it. i just want to be friends again. and dont pick everything apart out of all of this and try to make me a bad person, this is how i feel and this is how i chose to say it. you guys told hannah and a bunch of other people how you feel so dont get mad at me for this too. so if you wanna be friends, good, call me but we have alot to discuss for me to actually trust you again