"i didnt mean to hurt you. but i did what i had to..."
I dont know whats wrong with me at the moment. I was just sitting in my room playing with my phone listening to music and I started bawling my eyes out. I mean, I cried so hard that I choked. I cried for a good hour or so. I dont know whats wrong with me. I havent cried about anything in so long. It was so weird. It just came out of nowhere.
I was wrong. I admit it. I was wrong to even have a conversation with Josh. But I couldnt help myself. It's just like he drew me in. I dont know what he did or how he did it. It was like a very powerful force had a hold of me and wouldnt let go. Luckily I saw it. I saw what he was doing. I had enough strength in me to turn away from it. I am so proud of myself. But god damn...Where to go now???
I was wrong. I admit it. I was wrong to even have a conversation with Josh. But I couldnt help myself. It's just like he drew me in. I dont know what he did or how he did it. It was like a very powerful force had a hold of me and wouldnt let go. Luckily I saw it. I saw what he was doing. I had enough strength in me to turn away from it. I am so proud of myself. But god damn...Where to go now???