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k - sorry for not updating in seriously - FOREVER! ive been so busy and lifes been such a bitch. theres not enough time for me to sit down and actually write in this damn thing. but .. i still remembered i had it; ive been meaning to write in here since last week. i can finally sit down & bring all yall up to speed --
schools - school i guess. its getting old fast. i want the fucking summer back. like seriously - words cant describe how much i wish it was summer again. this past summer was seriously insane. cops showing up here .. yea that day was uh definitely WOW. ask sara, jane or dana -- massachuesets was definitely an expierence i would relive in a heartbeat. its amazing how much a friendship can change, for the better, over a period of 5 days when you live with someone. everyday of this past summer was amazing. i wish so bad i could go back & actually be somewhat happy. but those days are just memories now .. wow that actually sounded smart - something im not.
dance is just splendid. for hiphop - its just me jess jen & kayla. god only fucking knows what happened to the rest of our god damn class from last year. but so far everythings been amazing. i love it, again :) jazz is .. idk. good i guess. janeys taking it with me. so i guess its good so we can practice and critique eachother while we're home. i was supposed/going to take more classes; but i didnt. we couldnt afford alot of it. so im just taking two classes this year. hopefully next year - ill take more. i really want to. i finally realized now why my dad said dance would interfere with my social life. wednesday and thursday nights - i cant do anything. but ya kno what - thats ok. dance sometimes seems more important to me that going out. dont get me wrong - my friends are definitely important to me .. but at least when im at dance - all my worries are totally and completely gone. i dont concentrate on anything else.
everything at home is .. okay i guess. im not gonna get into too many details. i still hate it here, thats never gonna change. but thankfully nothing big has happened since the last outbreak me and my father had at the beginning of the year. that wasnt fun at all. that was painful; physically and emotionally. it definitely drained me emotionally. and i think it might have changed things between me and my dad now. i kinda wish it hadnt. but at that time - when i opened my mouth and said what i said what i said it was in my own defense.
ugh - test for baron tomorrow. and bio homework. i fucking hate school.