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My boyfriend caused me to have a major panic attack last night when he kept knocking on my window, waking me from a DEEP sleep caused by working like a zombie after a night of no sleep. I was unaware of exactly what was happening and was confused about what time it was, where I was and why I was on the phone without remembering answering it. I definitely flipped out for the first time in a while, shaking and crying.. but regained composure quickly. I've gotten better with my anxiety but it's still there. I've also gotten better with my insecurity, I can look in a mirror and not be completely happy..but at least not unhappy. December is going by so fast and I have no complaints. I want it to be Christmas so we can see the lights at the beach, open our presents by the tree, walk in town center while it's snowing, get starbucks and then cuddle by the fireplace. Christmas is killing me, I've saved up 400 dollars so far and have every intention of spending it all. I like shopping online. :) digjsdifjgndfgjidsjg. I haven't updated this in forever, excuse the rambling.