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Hey well im at my moms right now..
Its been quite interesting and i spent the first 15 minutes crying..
pretending to be doing my eyebrows. *shrugs*
Nic thinks i only came here for my presents because i dont want to stay till monday.. that really isnt it at all. its just that i feel weird being here you know. I feel like i always used to feel, i feel like the me that died october 23rd is back and i hate that feeling because i dont want to be that anymore. i want to appreciate life and such..
Anyways.. its christmas eve.. so merry christmas eve everyone. I hope everything at my moms goes better. Tomorrow we go to my uncle bills. Heh. I dont feel like falling asleep.
You know what i hate and think about all the time? People always think i used to cut for attention but to me that doesnt make sence because whenever people knew about it they just started to hate me so i mean ok what the fuck seriously? and even if i did do it for attention.. Does that really matteR? Does it really matter why the fuck i do it.. or does it matter that i couldnt ever stop myself? It kind of hurts to see that people im so fucking close to think/thought this. and i hope they rethink there thoughts now that im better, becayse the only reason i got better was for them. And now its becoming for myself.
I never meant to hurt anyonein the process..
Ok but enough of that.. about my weekend. It was just smply amazing to describe. youll have to check lindsays LJ (check the friends on here) for tons of pictures.. we took a walk and i was so cold my feet were bleeding seriously! lol! ANDI GOT TO SEE JENNY! yessss. her boyfriends friend alex payed for me and lindsay so wed come lol..
we saw meet the fockers and it was hillarious and im definatly gunna go see it again.
Well Im probly making Santa mad so i better go sleep..
Love you allso much.
<3 =D SMile for me! =p
oh p.s i got 2 my moms and there was stuff from trina here and i nearly cried and peed my pants. i love her so much. wish i woulda been here to see her. She got me awesome soft jammy pants that ive decided im wearing everydamn night =)
Later hoes.
Its been quite interesting and i spent the first 15 minutes crying..
pretending to be doing my eyebrows. *shrugs*
Nic thinks i only came here for my presents because i dont want to stay till monday.. that really isnt it at all. its just that i feel weird being here you know. I feel like i always used to feel, i feel like the me that died october 23rd is back and i hate that feeling because i dont want to be that anymore. i want to appreciate life and such..
Anyways.. its christmas eve.. so merry christmas eve everyone. I hope everything at my moms goes better. Tomorrow we go to my uncle bills. Heh. I dont feel like falling asleep.
You know what i hate and think about all the time? People always think i used to cut for attention but to me that doesnt make sence because whenever people knew about it they just started to hate me so i mean ok what the fuck seriously? and even if i did do it for attention.. Does that really matteR? Does it really matter why the fuck i do it.. or does it matter that i couldnt ever stop myself? It kind of hurts to see that people im so fucking close to think/thought this. and i hope they rethink there thoughts now that im better, becayse the only reason i got better was for them. And now its becoming for myself.
I never meant to hurt anyonein the process..
Ok but enough of that.. about my weekend. It was just smply amazing to describe. youll have to check lindsays LJ (check the friends on here) for tons of pictures.. we took a walk and i was so cold my feet were bleeding seriously! lol! ANDI GOT TO SEE JENNY! yessss. her boyfriends friend alex payed for me and lindsay so wed come lol..
we saw meet the fockers and it was hillarious and im definatly gunna go see it again.
Well Im probly making Santa mad so i better go sleep..
Love you allso much.
<3 =D SMile for me! =p
oh p.s i got 2 my moms and there was stuff from trina here and i nearly cried and peed my pants. i love her so much. wish i woulda been here to see her. She got me awesome soft jammy pants that ive decided im wearing everydamn night =)
Later hoes.