just some stuff
So my fourth of july really sucked...like major ass. The only good thing was that I got to spend it with Trina. I guess we made the best of it...but it could have been better, honestly I dont really think either of us cared that much.
And since my last update, things for me have been really shitty.
I went through hell and back again for the second time in my life and I'm not about to go there again....i dont even know if im going to stay on for this ride yet.
Things just dont feel right, inside my head and definatly not inside my heart. I dont know what to do but before I really start freakin out..im definatly going to give it sometime..because just giving up on 3 yearS would be completely stupid of me..and im not about to make that decision over night. hopefully things this weekend will change everything. I'll keep my fingers crossed, but I'm not going to set my hopes high, because in my case i always set my self up for a disaster
I know there are things that I need to do, to change myself for the better, to make things easier with us...and im really trying...but i cant be doing all of the work, its unfair.
uhhhh......
::amber sighs:
gosh sometimes in life you just have to sit back n relax and just let things work themselves out...but during those times it seems like its taking for ever!!
And since my last update, things for me have been really shitty.
I went through hell and back again for the second time in my life and I'm not about to go there again....i dont even know if im going to stay on for this ride yet.
Things just dont feel right, inside my head and definatly not inside my heart. I dont know what to do but before I really start freakin out..im definatly going to give it sometime..because just giving up on 3 yearS would be completely stupid of me..and im not about to make that decision over night. hopefully things this weekend will change everything. I'll keep my fingers crossed, but I'm not going to set my hopes high, because in my case i always set my self up for a disaster
I know there are things that I need to do, to change myself for the better, to make things easier with us...and im really trying...but i cant be doing all of the work, its unfair.
uhhhh......
::amber sighs:
gosh sometimes in life you just have to sit back n relax and just let things work themselves out...but during those times it seems like its taking for ever!!