Lately...
I'm just not at all happy with the way things are going.
Within myself I can feel control and optimism slipping away more and more each day. I was listening to Paramore at a friends the other day, and one line in particular stood out to me; "surrounded by uncertainty, I'm so unsure". I honestly don't know where my life is going or where I'm going to end up- hence why I've chosen to defer uni for a year.
I've started to notice old habits that I'm falling back into, and other bad ones I've picked up and started to rely on. I know they aren't good for me, but overall I just really don't give a fuck. My reasons for doing certain things aren't exactly good for my own well being- and again, I don't really give a fuck. I know, it sounds really bad, etc, etc. but unfortunately my state of mind at the moment isn't allowing me to effect much positive change into my life.
I don't particularly have a reason or precise point to this entry, just venting a little I suppose.
- emmarrr.
Within myself I can feel control and optimism slipping away more and more each day. I was listening to Paramore at a friends the other day, and one line in particular stood out to me; "surrounded by uncertainty, I'm so unsure". I honestly don't know where my life is going or where I'm going to end up- hence why I've chosen to defer uni for a year.
I've started to notice old habits that I'm falling back into, and other bad ones I've picked up and started to rely on. I know they aren't good for me, but overall I just really don't give a fuck. My reasons for doing certain things aren't exactly good for my own well being- and again, I don't really give a fuck. I know, it sounds really bad, etc, etc. but unfortunately my state of mind at the moment isn't allowing me to effect much positive change into my life.
I don't particularly have a reason or precise point to this entry, just venting a little I suppose.
- emmarrr.