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I find it funny how, I warned him about it. And he made fun of me. I was naive, he said. And it all came back to bite him in the butt. Serves him well.
"And now that I can see you, i know your not worth a second chance. Oh so much for the working sense of charm, it served you well. But now its gone and its wasted on me. I guess that all you got is all you're gonna get."
I should listen to Dashboard soon. It's been way too long. So many people tell me how Dashboard isn't that good. But the thing is, his talent doesn't matter to me. Chris Carraba is something I hold close to me, because it meant so much to me last year. When i was hurt by Forrest I could just turn it on, lay on my bed, and sing away the pain. Even when i was happy.. It just mellowed me out. It was what i lived off of. I listened to Dashboard everynight..it was like.. me. I don't konw i can't even explain it.
Rachel thinks Connor and I should go out. I think..um...ew. He's my friend. My really really good friend. But he's connor. And i defintely don't see him like that. Maybe in 34892384009284 years, and he somehow changes to an unconnor Like person? And noelle Thinks I should go out with Matt because he likes me. Or used to. But i don't know about that. I mean, I just feel like I will konw if I find someone I want to be with. Yeah, its middle School and i won't end up with them forever..But shouldn't it at least feel right?
No matter what happens, I'm here for you Rose. And i mean it.
I want to kiss Brady with poprocks. And suck on an emo boy's lipring. These are my short-term goals. I'm sure my parents would be proud. Was the world less fucked when we were young, or did we just not notice? I mean, i dont think i had any problems. I dont think anyone did. But maybe, i had loads and loads. But my imagination helped me escape them? I wish i could do that still. But people who escpae the world wtih imagination end up in funny white rooms. So maybe not. ^.^