i give up on people
im so sick of chicopee..i need to get away from here...sucks i still have one more year..i cant stand half the people..they all seem quite fake to me and im more than annoyed by it all...to be honest.
people who you thought would never be the way they are now or do the things you do..i just feel like im at a place in my life idk where i belong anymore..not many people seem to get me these days..i can honetsly say theres like 2 people that go to comp n i was friends last year that i was best friends with last year that im still bets friends with now n i know honestly have my back.
like of course..overall theres more than just 2..but its realllllly sad when last year it seemed liek i had it all..amazing best friends and a good opinion of my family..for the most part.
i think now that i'm growing up..i know theres more out there..i know somewhere theres people that mean what they say n wont screw you over.
i know im a good friend..im always there for my friends when somethings wrong or if there just havin one of those days..ill do whatevr it takes to try n make them happy..and i just dont get it in return alot or people just screw me over for other people who were never there for them..i just dont get it..i know i didnt do anythig wrong..n if they think i did then why cant they just be honets bout it..i know im easy to talk to so it just hurts..im just really confused n upset right now...i guess i just dont know hwere i stand with people..n these are people i always thought would have my back...just hurts.
my mom n stepdad thought i was like depressed cuz i changed some of my friends..n i know im not depressed..its justr hard to look back n see what u had n how things used to be n see how they are now..i work alot..but people just like assume thats all i do..n thats def not the case...used to be like every weekend i had my group of inseparatble friends where i never really kept my options open for other people..n it screwed me over big time becase the ones i thought would always be there obviously arent..and it sucks.
i hate to say this..but ever since my grandpa died..nothing has been the same with my friends.
people who you thought would never be the way they are now or do the things you do..i just feel like im at a place in my life idk where i belong anymore..not many people seem to get me these days..i can honetsly say theres like 2 people that go to comp n i was friends last year that i was best friends with last year that im still bets friends with now n i know honestly have my back.
like of course..overall theres more than just 2..but its realllllly sad when last year it seemed liek i had it all..amazing best friends and a good opinion of my family..for the most part.
i think now that i'm growing up..i know theres more out there..i know somewhere theres people that mean what they say n wont screw you over.
i know im a good friend..im always there for my friends when somethings wrong or if there just havin one of those days..ill do whatevr it takes to try n make them happy..and i just dont get it in return alot or people just screw me over for other people who were never there for them..i just dont get it..i know i didnt do anythig wrong..n if they think i did then why cant they just be honets bout it..i know im easy to talk to so it just hurts..im just really confused n upset right now...i guess i just dont know hwere i stand with people..n these are people i always thought would have my back...just hurts.
my mom n stepdad thought i was like depressed cuz i changed some of my friends..n i know im not depressed..its justr hard to look back n see what u had n how things used to be n see how they are now..i work alot..but people just like assume thats all i do..n thats def not the case...used to be like every weekend i had my group of inseparatble friends where i never really kept my options open for other people..n it screwed me over big time becase the ones i thought would always be there obviously arent..and it sucks.
i hate to say this..but ever since my grandpa died..nothing has been the same with my friends.