decision...
hmm i certainly have been slacking in the updating department...now havent i????
there are a billion things i should have updated about...but i didnt, so youll all just have to deal.
important stuff -- prom = UNBELIEVABLE ... like 10 times more fun than i was expecting...not to mention after-prom...just wow.
3-day weekend -- REAAALLYYYYYYYYY funnnn...and REAAAALLYYYYYY funny :-P
my friends = UBER amazing.
i guess sometimes i take my friends for granted...i mean we all do at some point...im going to try ot avoid that from now on though. because, honestly, where would i be without them?? ALL of them. i dont know how i occasionally forget just how much fun i have when im with them. if you ever feel like ime taking you for granted...just tell me??? because i really do appreciate each of you so so much.
tonight was nice. i was disappointed about the lack of a chorus line reunion. but reenie managed to cheer me up with the PLAN. look at her lj and youll understand. this is going to happen. ive set my mind to it and its GOING to happen. itd be nice to REALLY accomplish something...especially something that could be that much fun. then i went to my lil sis's which was nice as always.
now im sitting here....TRYING to write my shakespeare paper. its not that i dont know what to write. i have the idea all layed out in my head...its just that theres no pressure...no reason to do it tonight. i know i can finish it fine tomorrow....but it probably wont be as good as if i had worked harder earlier. oh well.
im ending this on a semi sad note, for me at least. but this is something that, believe it or not, i need to say here. this has been a really hard decision for me (some wont understand why or maybe wont really understand just how hard it was) but ive actually decided and im afraid that if i dont write it down somewhere i wont really accept it...but i feel like this is just the way things should be. Onstage has been a HUGE part of my life for the past 3 years. I've made some of the best friends of my life and had some of the greatest experiences i have ever known. After muuuuchhh thought and deliberation, i've decided that i won't be *doing* onstage this summer. I want it to be clear that i WILL be around a lottt. ill probly be at lots of rehearsals and i have every intention of going out and hanging out as much as possible. my reasoning is fairly complicated and has like 2 billion different layers to it lol so im not gonna write that all down...if you really wanna know feel free to ask <3
i know that this seems ridiculously formal, but ive finally been decisive about something that was hard for me...so i thought it deserved a record.
a big part of me is really just scared about not doing onstage...who knows when ill get to be in another show...it could be later this year, or it could not be for another 2 years or more...thats really scary. and scarier still is the fact that onstage has been such a huge part of who i am for what seems like so long...but i guess ill ALWAYS be a part of that. once an onstage person always an onstage person right? :-)
there are a billion things i should have updated about...but i didnt, so youll all just have to deal.
important stuff -- prom = UNBELIEVABLE ... like 10 times more fun than i was expecting...not to mention after-prom...just wow.
3-day weekend -- REAAALLYYYYYYYYY funnnn...and REAAAALLYYYYYY funny :-P
my friends = UBER amazing.
i guess sometimes i take my friends for granted...i mean we all do at some point...im going to try ot avoid that from now on though. because, honestly, where would i be without them?? ALL of them. i dont know how i occasionally forget just how much fun i have when im with them. if you ever feel like ime taking you for granted...just tell me??? because i really do appreciate each of you so so much.
tonight was nice. i was disappointed about the lack of a chorus line reunion. but reenie managed to cheer me up with the PLAN. look at her lj and youll understand. this is going to happen. ive set my mind to it and its GOING to happen. itd be nice to REALLY accomplish something...especially something that could be that much fun. then i went to my lil sis's which was nice as always.
now im sitting here....TRYING to write my shakespeare paper. its not that i dont know what to write. i have the idea all layed out in my head...its just that theres no pressure...no reason to do it tonight. i know i can finish it fine tomorrow....but it probably wont be as good as if i had worked harder earlier. oh well.
im ending this on a semi sad note, for me at least. but this is something that, believe it or not, i need to say here. this has been a really hard decision for me (some wont understand why or maybe wont really understand just how hard it was) but ive actually decided and im afraid that if i dont write it down somewhere i wont really accept it...but i feel like this is just the way things should be. Onstage has been a HUGE part of my life for the past 3 years. I've made some of the best friends of my life and had some of the greatest experiences i have ever known. After muuuuchhh thought and deliberation, i've decided that i won't be *doing* onstage this summer. I want it to be clear that i WILL be around a lottt. ill probly be at lots of rehearsals and i have every intention of going out and hanging out as much as possible. my reasoning is fairly complicated and has like 2 billion different layers to it lol so im not gonna write that all down...if you really wanna know feel free to ask <3
i know that this seems ridiculously formal, but ive finally been decisive about something that was hard for me...so i thought it deserved a record.
a big part of me is really just scared about not doing onstage...who knows when ill get to be in another show...it could be later this year, or it could not be for another 2 years or more...thats really scary. and scarier still is the fact that onstage has been such a huge part of who i am for what seems like so long...but i guess ill ALWAYS be a part of that. once an onstage person always an onstage person right? :-)