Hell Week
This week was, by far, one of the most hellish weeks of my life.
I dont feel like getting into all the details.
In the end, I guess you could say it was worth it.
I guess I learned some things.
I guess I made some new friends.
I guess SOME of the things i did managed to not fall apart on stage.
As for the rest of it...well i guess its in the past now and i should probly just let it go.
For myself tho, I need to appologize for this week.
I just need to get certain things out that i feel really bad about.
I need to appologize for not caring. I need to appologize for detaching myself from the world.
I need to appologize for being a selfish bitch because I was. The world doesn't revolve around me...just because things are going not so great for me doesnt mean i should pull the rest of the world down with me.
I need to appologize for ignoring people. I need to appologize for not talking to my friends and for not being there for them, the people i love most in the world. It makes me sad that i managed to get so caught up in the stupid little things that were going on in my life that i was missing out on really important things in my friends' lives.
I need to appologize for being stupid. I was ESPEICIALLY stupid lately. I need to appologize for not thinking. I need to appologize for saying things i dont mean.
I need to appologize for feeling bad for myself and for wanting everyone else to feel bad for me too.
I need to appologize for being so fucking caught up in my life that i didnt even notice that maybe some other people needed me.
Mostly, I need to appologize for not being there, and then when i was there, i need to appologize for being a *stupid bitch*. (<333 teehee yay jackie i loove it lol)
so there we go. im sorry. even if none of this DIRECTLY affected you. im sorry. there are things about myself and the way i act that im not happy with lately and i guess i just need to fix that. so i hope everyone can manage to forgive me, let this week go...and maybe, just maybe give me a chance to try again at being a sane good friend. cuz i REALLY want to try.
so here's to a new week...and a change for the better <3
ps...CONGRATULATIONSSS JACKIIIEEE :-)
and congratulations to ali and stef and julia and vanessa and anyone else that may have heard about colleges this weekend!!! <333
so much love
I dont feel like getting into all the details.
In the end, I guess you could say it was worth it.
I guess I learned some things.
I guess I made some new friends.
I guess SOME of the things i did managed to not fall apart on stage.
As for the rest of it...well i guess its in the past now and i should probly just let it go.
For myself tho, I need to appologize for this week.
I just need to get certain things out that i feel really bad about.
I need to appologize for not caring. I need to appologize for detaching myself from the world.
I need to appologize for being a selfish bitch because I was. The world doesn't revolve around me...just because things are going not so great for me doesnt mean i should pull the rest of the world down with me.
I need to appologize for ignoring people. I need to appologize for not talking to my friends and for not being there for them, the people i love most in the world. It makes me sad that i managed to get so caught up in the stupid little things that were going on in my life that i was missing out on really important things in my friends' lives.
I need to appologize for being stupid. I was ESPEICIALLY stupid lately. I need to appologize for not thinking. I need to appologize for saying things i dont mean.
I need to appologize for feeling bad for myself and for wanting everyone else to feel bad for me too.
I need to appologize for being so fucking caught up in my life that i didnt even notice that maybe some other people needed me.
Mostly, I need to appologize for not being there, and then when i was there, i need to appologize for being a *stupid bitch*. (<333 teehee yay jackie i loove it lol)
so there we go. im sorry. even if none of this DIRECTLY affected you. im sorry. there are things about myself and the way i act that im not happy with lately and i guess i just need to fix that. so i hope everyone can manage to forgive me, let this week go...and maybe, just maybe give me a chance to try again at being a sane good friend. cuz i REALLY want to try.
so here's to a new week...and a change for the better <3
ps...CONGRATULATIONSSS JACKIIIEEE :-)
and congratulations to ali and stef and julia and vanessa and anyone else that may have heard about colleges this weekend!!! <333
so much love