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When are things gonna get better?
I broke up with David on Saturday morning. a WHOLE lot of sh!t went down between us, but i found out that [ hopefully ] now of its true. I know i deserve better than him, but i miss him so much. I miss the feeling of being in love. It sucks. I still talk to him though. we're friends. He understands me alot and i understand him. IF ONLY IF ONLY he didnt treat me like crap in the past.
& my best friend shalina thinks that i dont want to talk to her anymore. All i told her was that i was tired of her calling me names and making me feel like crap. And she got it as that i hated her and i didnt want to be her friend anymore, so now i dont think shes talking to me.
I want to fast forward a couple of days or weeks atleast. I need to heal from david atleast. Cuz i know i dont need to go back out with him but i want to. im looking for a job too. Ive turned in 6 applications so far... i need money and i just need to stay busy to keep my mind off of things...