my wall just fell down....
and now i sit here crying and i dont know why. i was fine. i really was. and now im pathetic. everything was going so great for me and for once i was sure of something. and now all that has shattered. the wall i kept up for so long has just fallen and i dont even know how to pick up the peices, let alone rebuild it.
im way behind in school with now possibility of coming back. i have a 78 and theres nothing i can do about it. i have an 81 and its my fault.
im not ready for france at all and my mom does nothing but scream at me any more and tell me i dont appreciate her. no matter what i say i really do.....if i didnt i would'nt have decided to not try out for all eastern because it was too much money. but im not even gona say anything to her because its not like shell give a shit.
i had another track scrimage and i fucked up in everything.
im so tired all the time but i cant sleep because i dont have the time to anymore.
i hate myself right now.
......and when he kissed my forehead and said goodbye all i did was run upstairs and cry. i didnt know what to say but knew he wont be there for me again. i hurt the only one who truely cared about me. im sorry if you think i didnt appreciate you. thats not true though.
im way behind in school with now possibility of coming back. i have a 78 and theres nothing i can do about it. i have an 81 and its my fault.
im not ready for france at all and my mom does nothing but scream at me any more and tell me i dont appreciate her. no matter what i say i really do.....if i didnt i would'nt have decided to not try out for all eastern because it was too much money. but im not even gona say anything to her because its not like shell give a shit.
i had another track scrimage and i fucked up in everything.
im so tired all the time but i cant sleep because i dont have the time to anymore.
i hate myself right now.
......and when he kissed my forehead and said goodbye all i did was run upstairs and cry. i didnt know what to say but knew he wont be there for me again. i hurt the only one who truely cared about me. im sorry if you think i didnt appreciate you. thats not true though.