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[xo__nicola]

i have done alot of thinking this weekned considering i had nothing else to do..i have finally found friends in my life that i honestly can say i love, and they love me back..the things i may say sometimes either come out wrong, come out to strongly, or come out the way i dont want them to seem..i have realized not to assume because it will get you no where but right back to square one..it is never good to lie because the truth always seems to find its way back to you..i have finally realized that you may not be able to get everything you want in life and you have to be happy with what you do have..there are people out there with nothing so you must be happy with what you have..i have finally realized that people do care for me and i need to start showing my kindness towards others..i may say things that will hurt others but to me they are the truth, i may say things when im angry that i wish i could take back but theres no use wishing on somethings that cannot happen..i may do things to the ones i love and have no reason in hell for doing them. i have finally came to grips that i am 15 years old. i must act like a 15 year old and not get angry when im not allowed to do things like my 19 year old sister does. i have finally realized my parents love me no matter how loud i scream at them, no matter how many times i tell them i hate them, they will love me either way. i have finally realized the many friends that have walked in and out of my life, and the ones that are remaing today. to all the ones who have remained, i thank you for sticking through my shit because i can be a pain. i have finally realized i cannot fix everyones problems,i cant always be "ms. perfect", and i cant always get my way. because as the saying goes...
be happy with what you have today, because tomorrow it could all be taken away from you.

pointless entry.
but i needed to get it out.

im sorry it has taken me this long to finally figure out what im doing,
but im glad i finally did.

<3