Dec 16, 2006 09:25
last night was really honestly too much
knowing that kills me.
i swear i saw this coming
but then again i didn't want to believe it
i was hopeing that this would turn out for me
turn out just the way i wanted it to
but it didn't and now i'm here
just wanting to talk to him
yeah waiting is the worse
because no matter what it's going to work out for someone
and that someone happened not to be me
well last night it wasn't me
knowing that it was her and not me
yeah it hurts
and i'm basically crying just writing this
last night i bawled.. way too hard really
i just let it all out, i didn't hold back
dan campbell, thank you for everything
last night you made everything that much better
by just being who you are
thanks for sitting with me and just listening
and trying your best to understand
porter.. i'm sorry for the texts
and i'm sorry for the calls
and for everything else about last night
.. this is all for now
i need to stop focusing on it and try to just deal
maybe this will work out for me??