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hey..
hmm..gah i feel so weird*
everythings jus all added up at once and i break-down.I hold in everything that bothers me and then jus let it go all together..i feel so crappy and I guess I shouldnt..because i have a lot!I mean I have a nice house..I have money...I have the bestest friend ever--and I dunno..I guess i jus feel takin for granted.I'm too nice sometimes and I let people walk all over me*I wish i could harden my heart (yeah sounds weird) and not be so upset when people act in certain ways and instead be mad.I have a problem of caring too much.I try everything I can for someone to be nice to me and all I get is crap.I wish I could just get it through my head and stop trying..-but i always have this little spark of hope that maybe that person..did change!--maybe they r bein real this time-maybe them being nice 2 me and acting like they care will last.Im so sick of being confused!I start 2 get over you..and then u have 2 be all sweet and make me fall again..and then when i do--ur back to the person u were b4*why am i so stupid!?!
why can't i just stop freakin caring--i hate this feeling!i was doing so good..and i was actually getting better without u--i found out all the stuff i was missing out on--and thats a lot!you dont care about me--you dont care about ne1 but urself..so i hope ur happy!because the person u say u never want 2 hurt is the one u hurt the most--and i might not tell u or show u--but u really hurt me--and i wont 4get the way u treat me--dont act like u care..if u dont--and dont try 2 be sweet and then the next week be mean--its not that much of me 2 ask and its not that hard*
ahh..!lol alrighty..had 2 get that out!sry 4 ranting..but i jus feel like blahh!--and i had 2 say how i was feeling--but..
01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies.
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12.I believe honesty is usually the best policy when its convenient
13.I have acne free skin (most of the time)
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15.I curse frequently
16.I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby guitar
18.I've been told I have a nice butt
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20.I'm really, really smart
21.I've never broken someone's bones
22.I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free
26.I need money right now!
27. I love sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32.I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/nails/eyelashes in the past halloween
37.I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38.I like the way that I look
39.I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to do cornrows
41. I am usually pessimistic
42.I have mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44.I think Britney Spears is hott (with makeup)
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have...Not always always hyper
48. I think that I'm popular
49.I am currently Single.
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51.I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants shorts actually
53.I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57.I'm obsessed with my LJ
58. I don't hate anyone
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60.I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62.I have a cell phone
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama its funnie
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69.I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72.I have changed a diaper before
73. I've had the cops called on me before
74. I bite my nails...only when im nervous
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77.I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83.I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85.I own the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at school to be on Xanga or LiveJournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89.I love my best friends
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all...I liked him when he was black..
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97.I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98.I have dated a close friend's ex ((ex of like 6th grade..ha))
99.I'm happy as of this moment