Torn apart...
Ok well I was just at the mall with Blythe,Lindsey and Jonathan but I totally had an awful time. I felt like I ddn't like to be seen with them and like I didn't do it on purpose but it just happened... it just all of a sudden happened... It happened like this past summer too and the year before that I always switch friends...
God why do I do this every year... I am like unpurposely and unintentionally hurting people I love because of something inside of me feels like it has to change... You're asking what the hell I'm tlaking about right? Well its this thing where for some reason I change friends like the seasons... I like always end up with a new "clique" or group of friends because I guess I'm just confused or something... I realized I did this like around 7th grade because I would always just do it from like since I was little... My childhood friend or whatever left and moved so I ended up hangin out with new kids and well for some reason after that it always just happened like annualy or whatever where I would find a new group of people to hang out with and it just pisses me off and makes me so sad and depressed that I do it and I don't know how to stop myself...
Ok and if the "chill factor" is reading this then please don't take it offensive and to heart yet, ya gotta talk to me but you know I already went thru with this with yall so... I dunno what to do... I feel like I'm torn between two worlds... and as a matter of fact... maybe more... I mean ok so I associate myself with white peoplez, but I am filipino but I want to clique more with the flipz and I do but not to the point where I'm partying with them...I wanna party with blaq peepz but its so confusing... You don't understand... Its weird... I act white, dress flip, and wanna party blaq... I'm just totally out of place and don't feel like I belong... I need help or something I think... *sigh* Sorry if I offended anyone... I truly am sorry and beg for forgiveness and ask you to excuse the actions that may follow today because I think I'm going to be testing the waters and seeing where I belong now... So if I act like an asshole or total jerk... I'm sorry...
NeLLy
God why do I do this every year... I am like unpurposely and unintentionally hurting people I love because of something inside of me feels like it has to change... You're asking what the hell I'm tlaking about right? Well its this thing where for some reason I change friends like the seasons... I like always end up with a new "clique" or group of friends because I guess I'm just confused or something... I realized I did this like around 7th grade because I would always just do it from like since I was little... My childhood friend or whatever left and moved so I ended up hangin out with new kids and well for some reason after that it always just happened like annualy or whatever where I would find a new group of people to hang out with and it just pisses me off and makes me so sad and depressed that I do it and I don't know how to stop myself...
Ok and if the "chill factor" is reading this then please don't take it offensive and to heart yet, ya gotta talk to me but you know I already went thru with this with yall so... I dunno what to do... I feel like I'm torn between two worlds... and as a matter of fact... maybe more... I mean ok so I associate myself with white peoplez, but I am filipino but I want to clique more with the flipz and I do but not to the point where I'm partying with them...I wanna party with blaq peepz but its so confusing... You don't understand... Its weird... I act white, dress flip, and wanna party blaq... I'm just totally out of place and don't feel like I belong... I need help or something I think... *sigh* Sorry if I offended anyone... I truly am sorry and beg for forgiveness and ask you to excuse the actions that may follow today because I think I'm going to be testing the waters and seeing where I belong now... So if I act like an asshole or total jerk... I'm sorry...
NeLLy