its times like these when silence means everything
i definatly havent updated in a really long time, thats mainly cuz its just the same shit different day.. my dad gave me my birthday money on friday.. and even tho its monday morning...i have only spent like 5 bucks out of 50, i am getting brendon a CD that he has been freaking out over and cant find anywhere but i found it! heh he's gonna be so happy when he see's it haha he thought that the closest place he could get it was connecticut but nope hah its hot topic, i love him but he doesnt look very well!!
i was at my mom's house this weekend and we went to a birthday party for my *deep breath* step dads-brothers-wife's-son's 24th birthday party.. i guess i could have said my stepdad's nephew :-p... yah well i walked in the house to ger sum more rice n beans <3 and i saw my cousin in law type person sittin on the couch with his girlfriend the same way that brendon and i sit in his chair in the living room, and at that time, i have never felt so alone in my entire life i have never wished that he was with me more... -sigh-
i cant wait to see him again