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i dont know what to do with myself. ive been in this constant state of anger, depression, and contentness for the past couple days or so. listening to these songs dont help me sort things out. taking something so large away from my life, doesnt make me want to sort things out, it makes me want to go back to it, and cry, and tell it i love it. but i have to look out for myself. ive been through too much shit, and i know the signs. im sad, fuck im sad. and i know he is sad too..and i dont know whats going on with me. so much has changed in the past few days, in ways i would have never realized it would. but i know now i have to take things day by day. and i dont like that..i want to take a long nap..a long cry. but

everyones alone..and youre eyes must do some raining if youre ever gonna grow.

i hate everything right now. i dont know what to do...

this is the way we communicate, the confusion, and stress is putting me under the influence of anger. i dont know what i want, maybe after school is done this week, it will give me time to sort my things out and forget about grades, i really dont think im going to pass all of my classes, and that fucking sucks.i cant do bad...i cant. and i am. ive let things get more important than getting my ass out of high school. i feel like crying a lot...but im just going through that sad, lots of pressure feeling you get while youre crying...but no tears. i really dont know what to do. i want things to be fixed. im sorry