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[xnowhereslowx]

i suffer from coffee headaches all hours of the day and night. brought on by the caffeine i drink to avoid your sullen look. we may collage all through the night, painting the stars in the sky but all in a silence that i cant find comfort in. when goodnights are exchanged you give me that grin you dont know i love, and i smile back at; for a moment in time there is nothing more sincere than that look in your eye. i blame him for everything that runs through my head. though, i know i really shouldnt. its not his fault, at least not directly. and i havent spoken to him in about a month and even when i was speaking to him, i wasnt really there. an empty shell and smiling and nodding. if i took anything to heart its my fault, its my fault i put up a wall. and that uncomfortable silence isnt entirely your fault.
go ahead. keep ranting...done as done could be.

xoxo