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Lately shits fucked. I hate live journal and everything it has to "offer" but yet, I still degrade myself and come update from time to time.
FUCK. Fuck. FUCK
Anyways I'm having a hard time dealing. The only thing that's keeping me sane is hopes of getting the fuck out and my car... I might sound dramatic...or what not but I know that feelings can't be false. It's like this...I know all this shit is going on and my head is running a mile a minute...I seem to hate a lot these days and all I can do to stay a float is to forget what's really going on...whats really going on with me. I know I feel all of this shit yet, I'm not feeling any of it because the last few months have been a consistent and constant effort to mask it all By keeping myself busy. Not intentionally..I guess by nature? who knows I'm rambling. Fuck. Sometimes I wish it was easier.
Bye-Bye
FUCK. Fuck. FUCK
Anyways I'm having a hard time dealing. The only thing that's keeping me sane is hopes of getting the fuck out and my car... I might sound dramatic...or what not but I know that feelings can't be false. It's like this...I know all this shit is going on and my head is running a mile a minute...I seem to hate a lot these days and all I can do to stay a float is to forget what's really going on...whats really going on with me. I know I feel all of this shit yet, I'm not feeling any of it because the last few months have been a consistent and constant effort to mask it all By keeping myself busy. Not intentionally..I guess by nature? who knows I'm rambling. Fuck. Sometimes I wish it was easier.
Bye-Bye