Deep thinking---> trying and fucking up
I feel as if when you try, you mess up. I know trying is supposed to help you learn, but truly, you mess up more than you learn. You mess up with everything you try first. Like, for instance, your first bike ride. Or something more relevant to you people, your first kiss. And even after you've done it for ages you still mess up. You can make the same run for 2 years, mess it up 90% of the time, and in a game make it 10 times and mess up each time (soccer). I mean, you should get it by then that you need a new run. But I'm oblivious like that, and I bet I'm not the only one. You can do the same thing over and over again, and when you finally realize its wrong, you've added so much to the problem that you can't even fix it. I'm not even sure what that has to do with trying, but I felt like saying it. When you TRY to fix what you FUCKED UP, you can't even fix the whole problem. Sure, you can get whats on the surface, but you'll always hold some sort of a grudge or what not. I'm not sure where this is coming from...it's not even helping me feel better...but whatever. As long as I don't try anymore, I won't fuck up. So, like Jack and I discussed, I'm going with whatever's meant to be. Whatever happens happens. End of story.