sad
I hate this, I have been feeling like shit for so long now. Trying so hard to pretend everything is ok, when really it isn't. Andy made me realize that I am a really clingy person, in weird ways. And when I see my friends, not even bothering to talk to me during lunch/gym or even in the hall way...it fucking kills me. I have to try so fucking hard to get anyone to talk to me. So now that I know Andy, I am holding on...as tight as I can.....the only person who will listen and understand. I feel bad cause by me being clingy it is forcing him to be clingy too. And it is weird, cause this is the happiest I have been in my entire life, and yet I also feel so bad at the same time. I always hear how great of a person I am...well if I am so fucking great why are people leaving me...forgetting about me...pretending I don't exist...or 8 years of friendship means nothing?!?! I dunno, I thought that Senior year would rock, but it is sucking so bad. I really am thinking about dropping out, getting my GED ASAP and going to college. Cause this is just to stupid, all this time i have left....it feels wrong to just waste it on all this fucking bullshit. I agree with Andy in the sense that college will have smarter people for me, and I bet there will be better friends in college....I hope.
Final Thought: I am thankful to have Andy to talk to, he made me feel so much better last night. Thank you so much hun, I really appreciate it. sorry aboot the blue balls.
Blessed Be
Final Thought: I am thankful to have Andy to talk to, he made me feel so much better last night. Thank you so much hun, I really appreciate it. sorry aboot the blue balls.
Blessed Be