hard to breathe
i sit in my room,all alone and think about you,all the pain i've been through and all of the shit i've been through. i loved you once and i loved you twice,you hurt me more than life can give pain. you took my heart and put it into a blender and watched me bleed all over your white rug. you loved to watch me cry,after you threw my head into the wall. you would laugh at me after we kissed because i always said i needed you. you weren't the one for me,you aren't the one i need at night,when i'm cold and lonely,and when i need a shoulder to lean on because you were never there. you were my first love,and i love you no more. you mean nothing to me anymore. you are nothing but a big joke. a joke to you is me crying on the floor because of these scars over my body,that i did nothing to deserve. all i could do was love you and hold you when you needed me,but when i needed someone to care you always out with her. the that took you from,the one that ruined me. but now you want me back and you say you'll change,well i'm sorry, i have found someone so much better than you that it makes me nervous. you made me grow apart from you,and i met him,his heart is so great that it's amazing. now i know what love is suppose to be like,i'm sorry if you think that i'm going to crumble under the pressure you make me have,while you scream at me,and while i cry,i'm sorry,i love him. i love him more than anything. he makes me feel like im worth something and that i'm worth dying for. you made me feel like shit,and you made me feel that i could never have one or anything else better,but you know what,fuck you. fuck you. you did nothing but hurt me endlessly and you did nothing but make me feel like a piece of shit. i'm tired of you,and i'm tired of the all the pain i had to feel. im tired everything we've been through and everything that has happened in the past two years. i'm tired of loveing you,and i'm tired of caring for you,so get out of my head,and leave me alone. i no longer want,i want him. i want him to be with me forever. i don't think you understand that i'm completely over all of the shit that has happened. i'm tired EVERYTHING. look at me. look at me now,i'm not so worthless now,i have a heart you fucking bastard,you had it all along,but with every hit and every blow,you lost more and more,and it's over. i'm done with you. and im done with everything that has happened between us,so fuck you,when you realize how much of a fucking jerk you are,i'll laugh at you,and then you can know it feels to be in my fucking shoes. FUCK YOU.