things that i realize
but don't really care about:
1) i've started a fire that has the potential to burn me and a lot of other people, you don't poke angry/vindictive/influential/charismatic people with short sticks.
2) i don't care about 95% of the recycled rhetoric that people put forth or have deep meaningful discussions about, in fact, my opinion of a person immediately starts to go down if they use the phrase "organize the workers", "the rev" (and they aren't making fun of someone), "revolution of everyday life", "compassionate capitalism", etc. You get the idea, two of these phrases have been used in fake cyber conversations with a person whom I genuinely do care about, whether they think that or not, recently. I am not targeting that person with this comment.
3) as much as i like the idea of being an anarchist, i don't like most of the people associated with it that i've met. i mean we're talking out of hundreds, maybe 15 whom i would call friend or actively work on anything with, and roughly 8 of those, my relationship with them is alwasy in such drastic fluctuation that i couldn't sanely engage in a long term project or plan with them, because it's too eradic. the other 7 live all over the fucking country/world.
4) i have quit trusting almost everyone because i have trusted almost everyone too much at some point in my life.
5) right now in my life, i'm drinking less than i have in the past, i watch more tv, play more video games, waste more time on the internet and make more money than i ever have in my life. I also find great joy in playing long drawn out board games based on nation building and warfare. 24 is my favorite tv show right now, and it has nothing to do with politics. i also may be genuinely more relaxed and happy than i've ever been in my life.
6) my idea of my annual whole life shake up this year is buying another house and becoming a slumlord, this might be fucked up, but it's better than hurting someone i love, hurting myself physically or drinking gallons and gallons of beer whiskey and rum every month. these are the methods for completely upsetting the status quo of my life that i've employed over the past 5 years.
7) i get REALLY, REALLY bad seasonal depression.
8) i most likely will never leave indianapolis on a long term basis. even though i don't particularly like indianapolis. i think i'd be happier living in some ridiculously small town that has a grocery and hardware store and trying to do something community oriented for the youth there, and being a teacher. but i currently have inertia, and the laws of physics are really hard to beat.
1) i've started a fire that has the potential to burn me and a lot of other people, you don't poke angry/vindictive/influential/charismatic people with short sticks.
2) i don't care about 95% of the recycled rhetoric that people put forth or have deep meaningful discussions about, in fact, my opinion of a person immediately starts to go down if they use the phrase "organize the workers", "the rev" (and they aren't making fun of someone), "revolution of everyday life", "compassionate capitalism", etc. You get the idea, two of these phrases have been used in fake cyber conversations with a person whom I genuinely do care about, whether they think that or not, recently. I am not targeting that person with this comment.
3) as much as i like the idea of being an anarchist, i don't like most of the people associated with it that i've met. i mean we're talking out of hundreds, maybe 15 whom i would call friend or actively work on anything with, and roughly 8 of those, my relationship with them is alwasy in such drastic fluctuation that i couldn't sanely engage in a long term project or plan with them, because it's too eradic. the other 7 live all over the fucking country/world.
4) i have quit trusting almost everyone because i have trusted almost everyone too much at some point in my life.
5) right now in my life, i'm drinking less than i have in the past, i watch more tv, play more video games, waste more time on the internet and make more money than i ever have in my life. I also find great joy in playing long drawn out board games based on nation building and warfare. 24 is my favorite tv show right now, and it has nothing to do with politics. i also may be genuinely more relaxed and happy than i've ever been in my life.
6) my idea of my annual whole life shake up this year is buying another house and becoming a slumlord, this might be fucked up, but it's better than hurting someone i love, hurting myself physically or drinking gallons and gallons of beer whiskey and rum every month. these are the methods for completely upsetting the status quo of my life that i've employed over the past 5 years.
7) i get REALLY, REALLY bad seasonal depression.
8) i most likely will never leave indianapolis on a long term basis. even though i don't particularly like indianapolis. i think i'd be happier living in some ridiculously small town that has a grocery and hardware store and trying to do something community oriented for the youth there, and being a teacher. but i currently have inertia, and the laws of physics are really hard to beat.