" this poison's my intoxication"

[xnoiz_kissesx]

for those of u who care..

Im pretty miserable right now. I've lost touch with many people for one reason or another. I want so bad to just stay home and cry, but thats easy. I need to stay positve, im not that far down right now. But i know if i just cover it up and pretend its ok it'll get worse, as always.
i know people care, its just that i don't feel it. I miss my mom so fucking much... its the fall and winter when im reminded of her most. I miss my brother. yes, we keep in touch now, but not like it was, and it won't be. He's got his own life now. He's an adult. I just kills me how itll never be the way it was ever again.












she was so beautiful..























I miss my best friends...
"even experts agree.. a girl needs closure"

"you laugh you know?.. im not saying i don't cry, but in between, i laugh. besides, i look forward to a good cry. It feels pretty good."

i don't even know what i want.. or what can make me happy right now.
because in reality.. what i want is impossible. sso im stuck.
i have a feeling this weekend is gonne turn out bad, so stop by and cheer me up.. id like to see some familiar faces.
*and yes "kathy" misses you *
fuck it just hurts so bad