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so we talked on the phone today..i could feel the tension..it was weird..we just talked again and she didnt say she missed me..she just said that she might stay another day and the tone in her voice i could tell something was wrong..maybe im paranoid , maybe im crazy..maybe i just want assurance..i think there might be another guy again..if there is then this time its my fault..i should of stopped after the first time..im prolly just being silly..but i dont know..ive been in this situation so many times before and ive always been right on target everytime..thats why im so scared..robin has changed me alot..she gave me alot of hopes , dreams , and goals..i really had something to look forward too..ya shes done a few things to bum me out..but i dont think i can handle anymore heartache..this dog is just about all out of fight..i dont know..if we did break up itd be hard to find someone has great , smart , funny , clever , cute just everything..but if she cant be faithful then i cant deal with that..she builds me up and breaks me down so much and i dont know what to do..it seems like no matter how many times a girl leaves you for another guy..you can never prepare yourself for it..it makes me wonder that i must be that much of a shit guy .. no matter how hard i try or what i do to change situations that i can never make anyone that im with happy..it sucks because my friends are even sayin that its shady and that gives me more to worry about because now im not the only one seeing it and i dont want my friends to think bad about her , but i mean shes done it once and whats not to stop her from doing it again..its weird because exactly 3 weeks to this date , i got tattooed my outline and we went through the exact same thing