bygones
so, its been 7 weeks today that matt selfishly ripped my heart out.
ive put so much energy into trying o be okay and be strong having to see him 6 out of 7 days of the week still. but, i just cried again today. i know im not really okay, and its like i ran out of energy to make myself seem that i am. im GETTING there. i think. i know have to get there. its so hard and im so sick of not being okay.
but at least ive only cried for like, 10 minutes this time. and i may go the entire week and be okay until next weekend when i can let down my guard in the comfort of my dog and my couch.
ive put so much energy into trying o be okay and be strong having to see him 6 out of 7 days of the week still. but, i just cried again today. i know im not really okay, and its like i ran out of energy to make myself seem that i am. im GETTING there. i think. i know have to get there. its so hard and im so sick of not being okay.
but at least ive only cried for like, 10 minutes this time. and i may go the entire week and be okay until next weekend when i can let down my guard in the comfort of my dog and my couch.