thinking sucks... :-/
hello there again my dears!
how are you all doing this fine spring break?!? Me, I'm ok I guess. Been sitting around all week with my bro at home watching movies and thinking. The whole thinking aspect about the week has completely sucked...for most people when they think about things in their life it makes everything seem more clear and makes them happy or content with what they have now learned in this new found sense of clarity, but for me it's the exact opposite. I alwayz end up depressed and apathetic towards everyone and thing. It's just uhhh...I hate it! I really can't stand it at all. I can pretty much never call anyone or come online anymore because my brother has this "new found love" for this girl in Minnesota and he's online like pretty much all day talking to her and I get left with my thoughts eating away at my mind.
Man this really sucks I need to talk to Johnny or my tween because their the a couple of the few people that truly understand how my mind works....Man screw this I'm gonna go and try to talk to my tween or Johnny since I can actually use the phone for once. Hopefully my sanity can be saved before *Devan* comes tomorrow, I would hate for him to see my like this. I'll talk to you all l8ter, bye.
Love alwayz and Forever,
~*Yvonne*~
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"You told me that you want to die I said I've been there myself more than a few times And I go back every once in a while You called me lucky, you...you called me lucky You said tonight is a wonderful night to die I asked you how you could tell, you told me to look at the sky Look at all those stars, look at how goddamn ugly the stars are It's one or another Between a rope and a bottle And I can tell you're having trouble breathing, cause you'll never be o.k..."
-Trouble Breathing, Alkaline Trio
"Hey, I wanna crawl out of my skin Apologize for all my sins All the things I should have said to you Hey, I can't make it go away Over and over in my brain again All the things I should have said to you Counting stars wishing I was okay Crashing down was my biggest mistake I never ever ever meant to hurt you I only did what I had to Counting stars again"
-Counting Stars, SugarCult
"...But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell I'd say my time has served me well I'm fallin' I'm fallin' Now I'm in over my head with something I said Completely misread I'm better off dead And now I can see How fake you can be This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me"
-Over My Head (Better Off Dead), Sum 41
"Where will I be When there's pain as far as eyes can see I'll stand in line for days and nights, for making up lost time And this is how it feels So now I cut these loveless wrists My head sure hurts today I'll take another twenty pills and try to make my troubles go away..."
-Loveless Wrist, Bayside
"...Have you ever buried your face in your hands Cause no one around you understands. Or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you be. Have you ever felt like there was more. Like someone else was keeping score. And what could make you whole was simply out of reach Well I know. Someday I'll try again and not pretend. This time forever. Someday I'll get it straight but not today Have you ever. Falling, I'm falling. Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind Sleep forever Some days, my darkest friend is me again Have you ever..."
-Have You Ever, *Offspring*
how are you all doing this fine spring break?!? Me, I'm ok I guess. Been sitting around all week with my bro at home watching movies and thinking. The whole thinking aspect about the week has completely sucked...for most people when they think about things in their life it makes everything seem more clear and makes them happy or content with what they have now learned in this new found sense of clarity, but for me it's the exact opposite. I alwayz end up depressed and apathetic towards everyone and thing. It's just uhhh...I hate it! I really can't stand it at all. I can pretty much never call anyone or come online anymore because my brother has this "new found love" for this girl in Minnesota and he's online like pretty much all day talking to her and I get left with my thoughts eating away at my mind.
Man this really sucks I need to talk to Johnny or my tween because their the a couple of the few people that truly understand how my mind works....Man screw this I'm gonna go and try to talk to my tween or Johnny since I can actually use the phone for once. Hopefully my sanity can be saved before *Devan* comes tomorrow, I would hate for him to see my like this. I'll talk to you all l8ter, bye.
Love alwayz and Forever,
~*Yvonne*~
***********************************************************
"You told me that you want to die I said I've been there myself more than a few times And I go back every once in a while You called me lucky, you...you called me lucky You said tonight is a wonderful night to die I asked you how you could tell, you told me to look at the sky Look at all those stars, look at how goddamn ugly the stars are It's one or another Between a rope and a bottle And I can tell you're having trouble breathing, cause you'll never be o.k..."
-Trouble Breathing, Alkaline Trio
"Hey, I wanna crawl out of my skin Apologize for all my sins All the things I should have said to you Hey, I can't make it go away Over and over in my brain again All the things I should have said to you Counting stars wishing I was okay Crashing down was my biggest mistake I never ever ever meant to hurt you I only did what I had to Counting stars again"
-Counting Stars, SugarCult
"...But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell I'd say my time has served me well I'm fallin' I'm fallin' Now I'm in over my head with something I said Completely misread I'm better off dead And now I can see How fake you can be This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me"
-Over My Head (Better Off Dead), Sum 41
"Where will I be When there's pain as far as eyes can see I'll stand in line for days and nights, for making up lost time And this is how it feels So now I cut these loveless wrists My head sure hurts today I'll take another twenty pills and try to make my troubles go away..."
-Loveless Wrist, Bayside
"...Have you ever buried your face in your hands Cause no one around you understands. Or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you be. Have you ever felt like there was more. Like someone else was keeping score. And what could make you whole was simply out of reach Well I know. Someday I'll try again and not pretend. This time forever. Someday I'll get it straight but not today Have you ever. Falling, I'm falling. Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind Sleep forever Some days, my darkest friend is me again Have you ever..."
-Have You Ever, *Offspring*