If we could change why stay the same and what's this purpose with nothing to gain

[xneversaydiex82]

well... who likes the holidays anyways.. aaa. my family is the most sarcastic, bunch i know. besides mon copines? aaa..yeah.. so i went to my aunts on thanksgiving. then spent the weekend at my moms house... yeah it was ok i guess.got gifts for my older sister. oh yeah joy.hum...things have been weird. i think i have cried alot... to much to even think back and count. . and. last night things just got even worse. thats why i was acting strange in school.and i didnt want to bring anything up. i cant take my mind off it. i guess there is something wrong with me..or him. idk.:`( when u think everythings fine.... aaa idk every good day is led by a bad one.. or something tragic happening.. aajust wanna touch your lips as they grace gently over mine. im so. tired. i only got 4 hours of sleep.. rethinking things in my mind..? why cant boys cry?...

So count up all the stars that illuminate the road
and count them twice cause maybe then you'll know
the million shining times I never said things right
so please oh please stay with me tonight

*(It's too late) and writing songs
is not enough to shake myself from this rut
if you ask i couldn't find the words to describe how this hurts
now i could drive one thousand times,
around this little town to waste this night
with my answers epiphanies away
with my problems staring in my face
now should i stumble to your house
just to scream my lungs out
all slurred and blurry