Asking for hugs
I'm sufferring from post-Ethernet upgrade depression.
Like all slash relationships, the branch merger/Ethernet upgrade was filled with hardship and angst. The hardship would be the long hours of overtime spent trying to converse with three people at once. By the end of the weekend I wanted to tell everyone else to leave; I'd finish the damn upgrade on my own. I felt like everyone was demanding things of me. Which they were.
Unfortunately this feeling has melted over into my personal life. I've been wondering the past few days where others end and I begin. Do I really know who I am apart from my friends and family, or am I defined by them? No wonder I've been such a crab.
This is why I really appreciate one of TsuKata's birthday gifts to me. It's a book called Kokology, subtitled "the game of self-discovery". I could use some self-discovery right now.
Anyway... please bear with me for the next week or so. It'll take a while before I get my seats and tray tables back in their full, upright position. And Roger, honey... I meant what I said the other night. I'm scared and confused and I don't know what I want these days, but I'm not going to let my fears chase me away this time.
Okay. Bedtime. Sleep is good.
Like all slash relationships, the branch merger/Ethernet upgrade was filled with hardship and angst. The hardship would be the long hours of overtime spent trying to converse with three people at once. By the end of the weekend I wanted to tell everyone else to leave; I'd finish the damn upgrade on my own. I felt like everyone was demanding things of me. Which they were.
Unfortunately this feeling has melted over into my personal life. I've been wondering the past few days where others end and I begin. Do I really know who I am apart from my friends and family, or am I defined by them? No wonder I've been such a crab.
This is why I really appreciate one of TsuKata's birthday gifts to me. It's a book called Kokology, subtitled "the game of self-discovery". I could use some self-discovery right now.
Anyway... please bear with me for the next week or so. It'll take a while before I get my seats and tray tables back in their full, upright position. And Roger, honey... I meant what I said the other night. I'm scared and confused and I don't know what I want these days, but I'm not going to let my fears chase me away this time.
Okay. Bedtime. Sleep is good.