Jul 17, 2003 00:17
Alex is in the hospital... again. when he was here his stomach started to hurt so he went home. Hope and Steph came over and while they were here he called and said he was going to the hospital to take some tests. he really didn't want to go. and i can't blame him. i told him if he wants me to come down just to call me and i'll make my mom drive. but he said that if he needs me he'll make Rudy pick me up and drive me down there.
my mom got into an accident today on Snake Hill. she's okay, and her car isn't that bad. but it slipped in the rain and she ran into the guard rail. these kind of things come in three's, so i'm just waiting and preparing myself for the next one.
i had to go down and see my grandma and grandpa today. that was hell. for a long time they were just talking about how much of a screw up my dad is and how much he has changed. they said some things about him that i really didn't want Alex to know just yet. they were talking about the forclosure on the house in West Haven and about his gambling problem and how he doesn't talk to his parents. and i'm just sittin there, lookin at Alex, about to fucking cry cause i don't want to hear about it. but we left as soon as they were done bad mouthing him.
we stopped at Renee's. she told me next year i'm going to Gathering Of The Vibes. which sounds cool to me. she got a hemp hat. Terry wanted to smoke it.
Hope, Steph, and me decorated my room. we hung most of my beanie babies from the celing and put some posters up. it feels a lot more lived in now. i don't know how long the beanie babies are gonna last though. they're prolly gonna fall on me when i'm sleeping or something.
i'm gonna be sleeping fully dressed tonight in case Rudy calls and says he's coming to get me. i'm so scared. i just don't want him to be hurting any more :(