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so Alex left Thursday morning. he was at the condo till about quarter to 1 Wednesday night. Rudy and Ashley were in the closet and everyone else went for a ride to the point. me and him were just in the house, like it was our own house. it felt so nice just to be outside on the porch in his arms. i miss that a lot right now. i wish he would just fucking come home and not leave again. it's not fair. 4 days after we get together, he has to leave for a week. he called me when he got there though. and he called me last night and told me that he misses me and wants to come home. he said he stayed in bed all day because he didn't feel like getting up and doing anything. that's what i'm doing as much as possible now. now that no one is staying at the condo for a few days, i'll be able to just sleep all day. the days go by faster that way anyway. and before i know it it'll be Wednesday and he'll be home and i'll be happy again.
i'm so sick of sleeping on the floor of the new house. there's a spot on my back that is black and blue from sleeping on that stupid floor. if my father wasn't such a damn asshole and would just go get my beds out of storage i wouldn't be in so much pain right now and i would be able to help out with the moving a little bit more. but noooooo... ugh. stupid bitch.
i've decided to quit smoking weed. well, maybe not quit. but i'm cutting back a lot. the only reason why i smoked last night was because i still had some. all it does is make me really tired anyway. it's just not worth it. it used to be the only thing that made me happy. now Alex makes me happy. happier than weed ever will. so i'm giving it up. maybe cigarettes will go next. who knows.
me, Ash, Ang, and Hope painted my new room yesterday. the color is called 'Stardust' and i really really like it. it's purplish greyis blueish or something. i don't know how to describe it. it's really cool though. and i wouldn't have been able to do it without them. i love my giners.
i really wish people didn't know that i had this diary....
and i really wish that Alex would come home. or call me. or come on-line. or something. i miss him so much. :(
i'm so sick of sleeping on the floor of the new house. there's a spot on my back that is black and blue from sleeping on that stupid floor. if my father wasn't such a damn asshole and would just go get my beds out of storage i wouldn't be in so much pain right now and i would be able to help out with the moving a little bit more. but noooooo... ugh. stupid bitch.
i've decided to quit smoking weed. well, maybe not quit. but i'm cutting back a lot. the only reason why i smoked last night was because i still had some. all it does is make me really tired anyway. it's just not worth it. it used to be the only thing that made me happy. now Alex makes me happy. happier than weed ever will. so i'm giving it up. maybe cigarettes will go next. who knows.
me, Ash, Ang, and Hope painted my new room yesterday. the color is called 'Stardust' and i really really like it. it's purplish greyis blueish or something. i don't know how to describe it. it's really cool though. and i wouldn't have been able to do it without them. i love my giners.
i really wish people didn't know that i had this diary....
and i really wish that Alex would come home. or call me. or come on-line. or something. i miss him so much. :(