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today was the first day in a while that i wasn't depressed 99% of the day. i was happy off and on until lunch. then it went downhill last period because i'm pretty sure Jason hates me now. it's my own fault. me and Ashley were talking about him and Katie at lunch and we didn't say anything nice. i feel bad, but i haven't talked to him in a while any way, so it isn't so bad. he still makes me depressed inside sometimes, but not nearly as much as he used to.
i think i just miss being in love. that's the emptiness that i feel inside. but when i was in love it hurt. and now that i'm not, it hurts. i just can't win.
Hope decided not to go to work today so i went to her house after school. then we went to go get Mike. i got to listen to Prick. they're really good. i wanna go with James to see them in Boston but... i have no money. i only have $5 to get me till the weekend and tomorrow i'm spending it on smokes. not cool.
Hope, Mike, and me went to Wendy's so i could get my food, then to Subway to get their food. we stopped and ate at a park and then Hope brought us both home. i felt bad having her drive me all the way back to my house. i called my mother and asked her if she would come get me but she made this really annoyed noise so i said fuck it.
i sat around for the rest of the night. i'm really tired. i've been tired for a while but i just don't go to bed early. i'm retarded.
i think i just miss being in love. that's the emptiness that i feel inside. but when i was in love it hurt. and now that i'm not, it hurts. i just can't win.
Hope decided not to go to work today so i went to her house after school. then we went to go get Mike. i got to listen to Prick. they're really good. i wanna go with James to see them in Boston but... i have no money. i only have $5 to get me till the weekend and tomorrow i'm spending it on smokes. not cool.
Hope, Mike, and me went to Wendy's so i could get my food, then to Subway to get their food. we stopped and ate at a park and then Hope brought us both home. i felt bad having her drive me all the way back to my house. i called my mother and asked her if she would come get me but she made this really annoyed noise so i said fuck it.
i sat around for the rest of the night. i'm really tired. i've been tired for a while but i just don't go to bed early. i'm retarded.