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Last few days have been hectic, even though I haven't left the house much.
I need to check these journals more often.
I think I've lost all faith in seeing any good worth in males these days. They just don't know how to treat women. *shakes head*
I'm getting back into training. I feel the urge to destroy something with my fists soon.
Oh, and Tenten, do not worry about not meeting with us. I know you've been distracted with other tasks.
"Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absent-minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.
Let the lover be." -Rumi
shysunbeam: Nii-san...I have a few questions for you
obsessivescrew: Yes?
shysunbeam: Um..what did TenTen mean by what Itachi did to Deidara? She used a word I will not repeat...
obsessivescrew: *huff* They had sex under the influence of alcohol.
shysunbeam: Oh...but does that mean they are both...um, with each other now?
shysunbeam: And what does this mean for TenTen? I mean, aren't people only supposed to do...that...when they love each other?
shysunbeam: *is very confused*
obsessivescrew: No, I'm afraid not. They aren't together and they did something that is very inappropriate. People can have sex, regardless if they love each other or not. It's highly disgusting to have sex without a love bond in my eyes.
shysunbeam: I don't understand why they would. What about TenTen? She loves Deidara...
obsessivescrew: She does. That's why I'm so angered with Deidara-san. *clicks his tongue* It seems like many males these days do not know how to treat women with honor and respect. *shakes head*
shysunbeam: Nii-san, if I ever were to find a male like that, would you warn me? I would like to find someone like you *blush*
obsessivescrew: *smiles* If you ever found a male like that, he wouldn't live very long. *pats Hinata's head*
obsessivescrew: I'm flattered that you think that of me. *smiles*
shysunbeam: Why would I not? You seem to have everything worked out for yourself, you listen, and are kind hearted and protective. You should have a line of people wanting to get to know you better.
obsessivescrew: *small blush* Hmm...alas, despite all those kinds words I still am single. *shrugs* I don't think anyone would like to be with me because I tend to become a hermit.
shysunbeam: If not for all your work, I believe you are almost like a monk. Still, I am sure with time and persistence this can change.
shysunbeam: I do not mean to embarrass you...
obsessivescrew: *small smile* Yes, once my work is all done... I may try and rejoin the real world. So much happens out there. *chuckle*
I'm not that embarrassed. *looks away*
shysunbeam: That would be good for you. Um...why won't Kisame leave me alone? I've tried asking Itachi to tell him to go away, but then Itachi got shot, and TenTen spoke to him...
obsessivescrew: Kisame...Itachi... *huff*
obsessivescrew: Do you want me to "speak" with Kisame?
shysunbeam: Um...I would like to be able to leave the house in peace. I could swear somebody was outside the bathroom when I was showering the other day...
shysunbeam: And he knows TenTen stayed over the other night. *blush* He asked me if you were, um, gay. I ran away, like Master Kakashi told me to do.
obsessivescrew: He said what...? *furrows eyebrows* I'm glad you took Kakashi-sans advice...
shysunbeam: Well Master Kakashi feels I keep getting strange people to like me because I am too nice. He told me to be careful and no go anywhere alone where I might be attacked.
obsessivescrew: *nods* I fear fo you a lot. Once Tenten is finished dealing with her troubles, are you still going to train with her? I wish to help too. I do not want you to be in a bad situation.
shysunbeam: I hope TenTen will have time for me. I would like to...Um, Master Kakashi said since Gym teacher Anko seems to not be around he would consider training me.
obsessivescrew: Kakashi-san? That would be interesting. I hear he has a very good style. *nods approvingly*
shysunbeam: He said he knows of styles that could work well with my dancing.
obsessivescrew: Your dance skills would prove to be very helpful. *nods* You'll be able to move fluidly and swiftly.
shysunbeam: I hope to be able to make myself a more formidable threat. I do not like that everybody feels they need to take care of me...I don't want to rely on other people too much. Still...I kind of wish Shino-kun...
obsessivescrew: Hmm...?
shysunbeam: It's just...I have not seen him since before the dance. I wonder if he is avoiding me. I do not want to see too eager and try calling him...
obsessivescrew: I have yet to speak with him as well. Forgive me for not approaching him yet.
shysunbeam: It is okay, you have been busy. I on the other hand should have made more of an effort.
obsessivescrew: I still wish to speak with him. *huff*
shysunbeam: It is sad when I feel awkward because Itachi asked if I wanted him to beat up Kankuro, and offered to deal with Kisame, but I told him not to because those are offers a boyfriend should be making, not a friend...
obsessivescrew: Itachi a friend...? *narrows eyes* ..hm. But offering you some help...
shysunbeam: Um...he is sort of a friend. He set me free when Kisame...and he offered me money to cook for them. I feel bad that nobody in that frat house knows how to cook.
obsessivescrew: *lets out a steadying breath*
shysunbeam: I don't think I will be going to the frat house for a while though. I did not realize that they were sick in the head there.
obsessivescrew: That place upsets me...
shysunbeam: I don't like their closets
obsessivescrew: ...closets?
shysunbeam: Um, yes...Kisame thought it would be a good idea to put me in the closet.
obsessivescrew: W- What? He- ...*moves to sit down*
shysunbeam: *sits across from him* Remember the night I went to meditate by the river? Um...I started to fall asleep, and Kisame was there talking to the fish, and he offered to bring me home.
obsessivescrew: But he brought you to the frat house instead?
shysunbeam: Hai...and at some point after I fell asleep must have put a bag over my head and taped up my wrists and ankles. I kicked at the door, and then Itachi came in and cut the tape off...
obsessivescrew: *jaw is slack*
shysunbeam: Um, he seemed kind of mad at Kisame. That's why Itachi drove me home that night.
obsessivescrew: Hmm. *buries face in hands*
shysunbeam: I guess...TenTen talked to Kisame about it, and he said it was because he was hungry and knew I can cook...
obsessivescrew: Just...stay away from the frat house. It's not a good place...
shysunbeam: I will, especially since I wouldn't know how to react around Deidara or Kisame, and Itachi and Sasori seem to be the only sane ones...They might not be the safest, but they at least aren't mental.
shysunbeam: Actually...Itachi probably is.
obsessivescrew: I'm sure Itachi is. *nods* But I hear that Sasori is much better then the rest? I'm not all that sure.
shysunbeam: He was very nice to me. He is also nice to Sakura.
obsessivescrew: *nods a little*
shysunbeam: I fell asleep over there one night, after one of their parties, and Sasori put me on the couch instead of the floor. Um, he was also the one who told me the creepy guy staring at me when I woke up was Kisame.
obsessivescrew: *grits teeth and looks away*
shysunbeam: *reaches out and rests her hand on his* This was before you came home. I would never go to one of their parties now...
obsessivescrew: Good. Those parties are too much. *huff*
shysunbeam: They were very boring, lots of angry people...
obsessivescrew: I went to one of those parties long ago. I did not have fun. *shrugs*
shysunbeam: I've gone to two, and neither was fun. Kiba made me cry at one, and I fell asleep at the other
obsessivescrew: Then don't ever go again. I'm glad you never got seriously hurt.
shysunbeam: I won't, I promise. I just wish I knew what I did to get Kisame's attention. *shudders*
obsessivescrew: I'll kill him. Don't worry. *shrugs*
obsessivescrew: *thinks* Along with a whole bunch of other males.
shysunbeam: *blinks* Um, I don't believe murder is the answer. Besides, if you go to jail, who will watch out for me?
obsessivescrew: *chuckle* That's true. I believe I shall have to kill and hide the body then. No one will find out. *shrugs again*
shysunbeam: I would never say a word. *deathly serious*
obsessivescrew: *nods* Then it's a secret.
shysunbeam: You know I'd always keep your secrets. Um...nii-san? Do you think I'll ever find somebody who is always there for me? If I do, you'll be able to be free of me...
obsessivescrew: Be free of you? Hinata, you are not a burden to me. I have told you many times. *smiles at her* You will find someone, I'm positive. I'll kill anyone who you dislike. *smirk*
shysunbeam: Nii-san, I am a burden. I seem to attract trouble, and I cause you unneeded stress. You don't have to pretend with me...
obsessivescrew: *crosses arms* Did it ever come to you that I like to worry about you? You make me realize real life. You give me motivation.
shysunbeam: Um...no, I didn't realize that. I just thought you were so concerned because it was part of your job.
obsessivescrew: *shakes head* It's not a job. I like to make sure you're safe and happy. *said easily*
shysunbeam: I want you to be safe and happy too. That's why I like taking care of you.
obsessivescrew: See? Everything works out well. *nods* Maybe it has something to do with our fathers being twins. *smiles*
shysunbeam: *nods* Probably...but you should still be the favored one. In a different world, you'd be the perfect future choice for me, according to father.
obsessivescrew: I do not wish to be the favorite. I would feel so...closed in. I want both of us to be free. *shrugs* *pauses and smiles* Yes, in a different world.
shysunbeam: You deserve it more than I do, you are everything the family values. *smiles softly* Thanks to you, we are free. Soon we could even be happy...
I need to check these journals more often.
I think I've lost all faith in seeing any good worth in males these days. They just don't know how to treat women. *shakes head*
I'm getting back into training. I feel the urge to destroy something with my fists soon.
Oh, and Tenten, do not worry about not meeting with us. I know you've been distracted with other tasks.
"Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absent-minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.
Let the lover be." -Rumi
shysunbeam: Nii-san...I have a few questions for you
obsessivescrew: Yes?
shysunbeam: Um..what did TenTen mean by what Itachi did to Deidara? She used a word I will not repeat...
obsessivescrew: *huff* They had sex under the influence of alcohol.
shysunbeam: Oh...but does that mean they are both...um, with each other now?
shysunbeam: And what does this mean for TenTen? I mean, aren't people only supposed to do...that...when they love each other?
shysunbeam: *is very confused*
obsessivescrew: No, I'm afraid not. They aren't together and they did something that is very inappropriate. People can have sex, regardless if they love each other or not. It's highly disgusting to have sex without a love bond in my eyes.
shysunbeam: I don't understand why they would. What about TenTen? She loves Deidara...
obsessivescrew: She does. That's why I'm so angered with Deidara-san. *clicks his tongue* It seems like many males these days do not know how to treat women with honor and respect. *shakes head*
shysunbeam: Nii-san, if I ever were to find a male like that, would you warn me? I would like to find someone like you *blush*
obsessivescrew: *smiles* If you ever found a male like that, he wouldn't live very long. *pats Hinata's head*
obsessivescrew: I'm flattered that you think that of me. *smiles*
shysunbeam: Why would I not? You seem to have everything worked out for yourself, you listen, and are kind hearted and protective. You should have a line of people wanting to get to know you better.
obsessivescrew: *small blush* Hmm...alas, despite all those kinds words I still am single. *shrugs* I don't think anyone would like to be with me because I tend to become a hermit.
shysunbeam: If not for all your work, I believe you are almost like a monk. Still, I am sure with time and persistence this can change.
shysunbeam: I do not mean to embarrass you...
obsessivescrew: *small smile* Yes, once my work is all done... I may try and rejoin the real world. So much happens out there. *chuckle*
I'm not that embarrassed. *looks away*
shysunbeam: That would be good for you. Um...why won't Kisame leave me alone? I've tried asking Itachi to tell him to go away, but then Itachi got shot, and TenTen spoke to him...
obsessivescrew: Kisame...Itachi... *huff*
obsessivescrew: Do you want me to "speak" with Kisame?
shysunbeam: Um...I would like to be able to leave the house in peace. I could swear somebody was outside the bathroom when I was showering the other day...
shysunbeam: And he knows TenTen stayed over the other night. *blush* He asked me if you were, um, gay. I ran away, like Master Kakashi told me to do.
obsessivescrew: He said what...? *furrows eyebrows* I'm glad you took Kakashi-sans advice...
shysunbeam: Well Master Kakashi feels I keep getting strange people to like me because I am too nice. He told me to be careful and no go anywhere alone where I might be attacked.
obsessivescrew: *nods* I fear fo you a lot. Once Tenten is finished dealing with her troubles, are you still going to train with her? I wish to help too. I do not want you to be in a bad situation.
shysunbeam: I hope TenTen will have time for me. I would like to...Um, Master Kakashi said since Gym teacher Anko seems to not be around he would consider training me.
obsessivescrew: Kakashi-san? That would be interesting. I hear he has a very good style. *nods approvingly*
shysunbeam: He said he knows of styles that could work well with my dancing.
obsessivescrew: Your dance skills would prove to be very helpful. *nods* You'll be able to move fluidly and swiftly.
shysunbeam: I hope to be able to make myself a more formidable threat. I do not like that everybody feels they need to take care of me...I don't want to rely on other people too much. Still...I kind of wish Shino-kun...
obsessivescrew: Hmm...?
shysunbeam: It's just...I have not seen him since before the dance. I wonder if he is avoiding me. I do not want to see too eager and try calling him...
obsessivescrew: I have yet to speak with him as well. Forgive me for not approaching him yet.
shysunbeam: It is okay, you have been busy. I on the other hand should have made more of an effort.
obsessivescrew: I still wish to speak with him. *huff*
shysunbeam: It is sad when I feel awkward because Itachi asked if I wanted him to beat up Kankuro, and offered to deal with Kisame, but I told him not to because those are offers a boyfriend should be making, not a friend...
obsessivescrew: Itachi a friend...? *narrows eyes* ..hm. But offering you some help...
shysunbeam: Um...he is sort of a friend. He set me free when Kisame...and he offered me money to cook for them. I feel bad that nobody in that frat house knows how to cook.
obsessivescrew: *lets out a steadying breath*
shysunbeam: I don't think I will be going to the frat house for a while though. I did not realize that they were sick in the head there.
obsessivescrew: That place upsets me...
shysunbeam: I don't like their closets
obsessivescrew: ...closets?
shysunbeam: Um, yes...Kisame thought it would be a good idea to put me in the closet.
obsessivescrew: W- What? He- ...*moves to sit down*
shysunbeam: *sits across from him* Remember the night I went to meditate by the river? Um...I started to fall asleep, and Kisame was there talking to the fish, and he offered to bring me home.
obsessivescrew: But he brought you to the frat house instead?
shysunbeam: Hai...and at some point after I fell asleep must have put a bag over my head and taped up my wrists and ankles. I kicked at the door, and then Itachi came in and cut the tape off...
obsessivescrew: *jaw is slack*
shysunbeam: Um, he seemed kind of mad at Kisame. That's why Itachi drove me home that night.
obsessivescrew: Hmm. *buries face in hands*
shysunbeam: I guess...TenTen talked to Kisame about it, and he said it was because he was hungry and knew I can cook...
obsessivescrew: Just...stay away from the frat house. It's not a good place...
shysunbeam: I will, especially since I wouldn't know how to react around Deidara or Kisame, and Itachi and Sasori seem to be the only sane ones...They might not be the safest, but they at least aren't mental.
shysunbeam: Actually...Itachi probably is.
obsessivescrew: I'm sure Itachi is. *nods* But I hear that Sasori is much better then the rest? I'm not all that sure.
shysunbeam: He was very nice to me. He is also nice to Sakura.
obsessivescrew: *nods a little*
shysunbeam: I fell asleep over there one night, after one of their parties, and Sasori put me on the couch instead of the floor. Um, he was also the one who told me the creepy guy staring at me when I woke up was Kisame.
obsessivescrew: *grits teeth and looks away*
shysunbeam: *reaches out and rests her hand on his* This was before you came home. I would never go to one of their parties now...
obsessivescrew: Good. Those parties are too much. *huff*
shysunbeam: They were very boring, lots of angry people...
obsessivescrew: I went to one of those parties long ago. I did not have fun. *shrugs*
shysunbeam: I've gone to two, and neither was fun. Kiba made me cry at one, and I fell asleep at the other
obsessivescrew: Then don't ever go again. I'm glad you never got seriously hurt.
shysunbeam: I won't, I promise. I just wish I knew what I did to get Kisame's attention. *shudders*
obsessivescrew: I'll kill him. Don't worry. *shrugs*
obsessivescrew: *thinks* Along with a whole bunch of other males.
shysunbeam: *blinks* Um, I don't believe murder is the answer. Besides, if you go to jail, who will watch out for me?
obsessivescrew: *chuckle* That's true. I believe I shall have to kill and hide the body then. No one will find out. *shrugs again*
shysunbeam: I would never say a word. *deathly serious*
obsessivescrew: *nods* Then it's a secret.
shysunbeam: You know I'd always keep your secrets. Um...nii-san? Do you think I'll ever find somebody who is always there for me? If I do, you'll be able to be free of me...
obsessivescrew: Be free of you? Hinata, you are not a burden to me. I have told you many times. *smiles at her* You will find someone, I'm positive. I'll kill anyone who you dislike. *smirk*
shysunbeam: Nii-san, I am a burden. I seem to attract trouble, and I cause you unneeded stress. You don't have to pretend with me...
obsessivescrew: *crosses arms* Did it ever come to you that I like to worry about you? You make me realize real life. You give me motivation.
shysunbeam: Um...no, I didn't realize that. I just thought you were so concerned because it was part of your job.
obsessivescrew: *shakes head* It's not a job. I like to make sure you're safe and happy. *said easily*
shysunbeam: I want you to be safe and happy too. That's why I like taking care of you.
obsessivescrew: See? Everything works out well. *nods* Maybe it has something to do with our fathers being twins. *smiles*
shysunbeam: *nods* Probably...but you should still be the favored one. In a different world, you'd be the perfect future choice for me, according to father.
obsessivescrew: I do not wish to be the favorite. I would feel so...closed in. I want both of us to be free. *shrugs* *pauses and smiles* Yes, in a different world.
shysunbeam: You deserve it more than I do, you are everything the family values. *smiles softly* Thanks to you, we are free. Soon we could even be happy...