A life full of contradictions

[xnedra]

Ok so heres the thing. Ive been thinking about what I want from a guy and here is the list Ive come up with!

I want a guy who is crazy in love with me. Im the first thing he thinks of when he gets up and the last thing he thinks of before he goes to sleep. But I dont want him to be controling, obsessive or clingy.

I want a guy who knows what I want even before I do but can do it in a way that doesnt make him seem like an insufferable know it all.

I want a guy who knows when I want/need to fight and will fight with me and will happily make up when he knows I know Im being silly.

I want a guy who is going to catch me when I fall but will know when I need to stand alone.

I want a guy who is never going to lie to me and will never hurt me.

I want a guy who knows when I need to be alone with my thoughts but who is always there when I need him.

I want a guy who makes love to me with as much attention and care as the first time, everytime.

I want a guy who knows who he is and where hes going and has faith in him self.

I want a guy who isnt affraid to say he doesnt know and isnt ashamed of asking for help.

I want a guy who can make all the pain go away but knows that I have to do it my self.

I want a guy who understands how difficult some things are for me and celebrates every babystep I take forward.

I want a guy who I can trust with my secrets, my life and, most importantly, my heart.

I want a guy who needs me to look after him but can do it himself and appreciates my attention and love.

I want a guy who never takes me for granted and recognises that there is no tomorrow only today and knows how to make it count.

I want a guy who can forgive my past mistakes and takes me as I come and NEVER says "Ill fix you"

I want a guy who will hold me when I cry, scream, hit and sleep and accept me in perfect love and perfect trust at all of those times.

I want a guy who loves who I am, accepts who I was and welcomes who I will become.

I want a guy who can laugh at himself but knows when to be serious.

I want a guy who is going to listen to my opinions and accept them even if they are not his.

I want a guy who accepts that Teddy will always sleep either in or near my bed and will be the first person I run to when things get tough.

I want a guy who is going to wine and dine me and take me to the theater and to concerts.

I want a guy who will remember my birthday and aniversarys.

I want a guy who will open the door for me but allow me to open the door for him.

I want a guy who will love me as much as I deserve.

I guess I dont ask for much huh? LOL

If you think you fit the bill leave me a comment. lol

In other news I met up with Hannah today in Newcastle. Was a really good day out. Had a really good time and spent lots of money I dont have! LOL

Got work tomorrow which Im not really looking forward to for a couple of reasons. I really cant be bothered to put up with Pauls shit for 8 hours so I hope he goes out and the shop has been pretty slow lately. Its been picking up but its not so busy that we are run off our feet. I think if paul is in Im tempted to go upstairs and rearrange the stock.

Anyway Im gonna go read for a bit before going to bed. See you all later.