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ok I'm totally confussed and I need some major help from my friends...
ok this guy im dating is totally awsome and I like him so much but I'm so scared of relationships right now at first it was the best thing ever he gave me butterflies and made me smile with every word he said to me but soon as things change the slightest little bit I get sick to my stomache and scared. I relized my feelings for him soon as I thought he was mad at me and now im so confussed the last thing i want to do is break up cause I like him so much and he makes me so happy but I'm not ready for love again things were so much different with derek we were inseperable and now it seems like avery never wants it to jsut be me and him I want him to want to be my best friend but oh wow at the same time I don't even need a boyfriend I am good at being independant but there is something about avery that interest me so much. he trully is an awsome person. I like holding his hand kissing his lips being his girlfriend...omg Im so falling for him.....aagggghhhh ok if I have not totally confussed you by now it's amazing cause I confusse myself... I can't sleep over this shit... I can't keep calling him like I used to with derek. avery doesn't know everything derek knows about me... I can't do this all again!
I'm just sitting myself up for another heart break...I could never emotionaly deal with it....
ok this guy im dating is totally awsome and I like him so much but I'm so scared of relationships right now at first it was the best thing ever he gave me butterflies and made me smile with every word he said to me but soon as things change the slightest little bit I get sick to my stomache and scared. I relized my feelings for him soon as I thought he was mad at me and now im so confussed the last thing i want to do is break up cause I like him so much and he makes me so happy but I'm not ready for love again things were so much different with derek we were inseperable and now it seems like avery never wants it to jsut be me and him I want him to want to be my best friend but oh wow at the same time I don't even need a boyfriend I am good at being independant but there is something about avery that interest me so much. he trully is an awsome person. I like holding his hand kissing his lips being his girlfriend...omg Im so falling for him.....aagggghhhh ok if I have not totally confussed you by now it's amazing cause I confusse myself... I can't sleep over this shit... I can't keep calling him like I used to with derek. avery doesn't know everything derek knows about me... I can't do this all again!
I'm just sitting myself up for another heart break...I could never emotionaly deal with it....