Fuck it...
Yeah so todays my last day of classes, I think. Tomorrow I have to be here at like 6:30 for some senior breakfast thing which is bullshit. I have my last final next period.
Kelsey's been gone a week and it fucking sucks. I'm doing fine with him being gone, thats not the part that bothers me I just don't like this whole phone thing. I can't say anything I want to say i don't know why. I miss him, yeah of course. I just don't feel like he cares. I know he wont ever feel the way I want him to about me, I just don't feel like he cares, and I was right that he doesn't need me any more. I have no idea. I'm just stupid. I feel like I've got a fucking pen pal or something rather than a boyfriend.
I'm reminded of chris with this whole phone thing, but chris was much different, not necessarily good or bad. He may have been a dumbass and a pot head and I'm much happier with kelsey but at least I knew how Chris felt about me. Good riddance to him. I feel like a dumbshit, I'm stupid. I hate me sometimes.
I'm glad I wont have to get up for school anymore at least. Tommorrow I get to sit in a metal folding chair for most of the day bored to death. hooray for graduation (sarcasm) Oh yeah also I just got sick like randomly. HEy why don't I just randomly get sick. I was fine when I woke up yesterday and when I got home, but after that it just got progressively worse. It's probably some side effect of sitting around on my ass all day. *sneeze* good bye
Kelsey's been gone a week and it fucking sucks. I'm doing fine with him being gone, thats not the part that bothers me I just don't like this whole phone thing. I can't say anything I want to say i don't know why. I miss him, yeah of course. I just don't feel like he cares. I know he wont ever feel the way I want him to about me, I just don't feel like he cares, and I was right that he doesn't need me any more. I have no idea. I'm just stupid. I feel like I've got a fucking pen pal or something rather than a boyfriend.
I'm reminded of chris with this whole phone thing, but chris was much different, not necessarily good or bad. He may have been a dumbass and a pot head and I'm much happier with kelsey but at least I knew how Chris felt about me. Good riddance to him. I feel like a dumbshit, I'm stupid. I hate me sometimes.
I'm glad I wont have to get up for school anymore at least. Tommorrow I get to sit in a metal folding chair for most of the day bored to death. hooray for graduation (sarcasm) Oh yeah also I just got sick like randomly. HEy why don't I just randomly get sick. I was fine when I woke up yesterday and when I got home, but after that it just got progressively worse. It's probably some side effect of sitting around on my ass all day. *sneeze* good bye